^Let's face it^

Sem 8:Elective course part 3

2012-01-18T21:33:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

So today I went for my fifth class.
It was supposed to be held yesterday but it got cancelled cause my instructor is currently having the lady time of the month. So we agreed to continue the class after I come back from Sabah which is in 1 month time. The gap is toooo wide and so she texted me last night asking to have class with her where she will teach me from the deck. Means I'm alone in the water. I said ok why not. Its not gonna be bad pon kan. *confident gila!*
And so we agreed to have class in the morning instead of the usual timing. Thank god for that cause petang tadi hujan lebat!!! fuhhhh~

I jumped into the pool confidently and swim like how she taught me. She satisfied with it and ask me to swim to the deeper part with no life jacket whatsoever.
I was contemplating at first but I still wanna do it. *bajet terer*
So I swim slowly towards the middle of the pool. okayyy so far sooo good..suddenly I panicked as I saw the line indicating I'm already at more than 1.6 M depth (which is more than my height).
I panicked gila gila gila that I swallowed A LOT OF CHLORINATED WATER...yucksss I know..
Then my instructor quickly throw some sort of life saving thingy (buoy) to me and I grabbed it and push myself to the side of the pool. Perghhh at that time memang dah banyak gila air masok mulut and hidung that I have to bubble them out for few times.
Luckily no one was there as the pool opens to public at 9 am but we got there earlier for training purposes.

Then, teros rasa phobia!!! and my instructor asked me to swim back to 1.5M part where I can feel the ground.

see.see..I told you guys that I'm afraid of air dalam!!!!
scary gila!!!!!

ok then we continue doing water treading there and after about 10 minutes she gave me life jacket and for the first time of my life, I managed to swim long lap! *cries happily*

But with a life jacket la of course!

First time weh swim dekat 7ft area!!!! awesome gila rasa! hahaha!
And I managed to do 8 laps to and fro with 1-2 minutes rest in between *pats own shoulder*

ends of my glorious moment.

now comes to my noob-dumbass-wtf moment........

I have always thought that morning sun is not so bright compared to the evening's. It contains whatever vitamin in it so its good la kan. Plus I'm swimming from 8 am to 10 am. Not at 12 pm where the weather is scorching hot!
So, I've decided to just apply LITTLE BIT of sunblock just in case if the sun is too bright. I apply LITTLE BIT on my face and arms. Thats it.
Andddddddddddddddddddd!!! I wore the swimming cap wrongly. Its not wrong la but not at the right position la. Ok fine, I was too lazy to betulkan my cap when its already covering half of my forehead cause I thought that was fine.......
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not until I saw this!

NIGHTMARE!!!!!!! wtf!
this is worst than having monster underneath your bed!
oh boy!
Then I started scrutinizing my hands and leg and ohhhh boyyyy!
I was speechless! I regretted myself for not putting tonnes of sunblock on my limbs!

2 nights ago my mom said Im super stupid for wearing sleeveless top and long pants! hahahahaha and now I know why!
It should be the other way round lah kan. long sleeve tops and shorts! Its ok if I burned up my whole leg cause I dont wear shorts in public. but I do wear short sleeves top in public.

my hands are all burned up and my leg T.T..it looks as if I'm wearing black socks there.
Just like socks distribution for sensation test for diabetic neuropathy! HAHAHAHA
I didnt snapped pic of my leg as I was still in shocked of seeing my face!

Now what shall I do with it???

The only resolution on my mind is to wear purdah! ala-ala waheeda, bini akhil khai tu kan! HAHAHA

*sebelum anyone bash aku, I'm not kutuk-ing purdah here ok*
But think about it, its the only solution for my forehead here! I dont have fringe/bangs to cover it up.

So just now I've tepek lots of whitening cream on my face hoping that the line will go away. At least the line!!!!
and now I'm thinking of spraying clorox on it!

huwaaaaaaaaaa!!! desperate ni hoi!

anybody has a better solution?

Sem 8:Elective course part 2

2012-01-17T00:30:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

Ok, as expected I did not update about my first class right away! hahaha
I was so lazy and exhausted after the class. 2 ungodly hours (my class is from 5-7pm = PANAS) in the water makes me weak and powerless. I came back practically lying on the bed helplessly from the first 2 classes.
Penat gila gila nak mam!
I dont know where on earth I had the energy to drive back home.
I was worn out that I could only think about is going to sleep rather than taking my dinner. But of course I ate my dinner la as my mom nagged me to come down and eat.

over tak aku?
HAHAHA!

ok mind you readers that I dont exercise. The last time I jogged was err err more than 2 years ago. I swear!

*gosh now I realised how bad my lifestyle is!!!!*

The only exercise that I've done is walking in the shopping mall, running up and down the escalator, walking from one end to another (mind you that shopping mall is huge!), rushing like mad when there's a big sign of SALE in front of my favourite shop :D andddddddddd walking in Singapore.

Okay, why is it so special that I had to put it there?
As we already know, Singaporeans are kiasu. They themselves admit about this so dont sue me ok.
If you have been to Singapore, you can see that even their escalators are also KIASU!
like super kiasu!
They have the fastest moving escalators I've ever seen!!!! (mind you that I've only been to Singapore and Australia). This kind of escalators are everywhere! in the mall and also at MRT stations and I love it to bits! Buttttt,I'm still Malaysians at heart as I dont climb the fast moving escalators like them. Having the fast moving thing pon dah bersyukurrrrr so tapayah waste energy to climb them up.
Andddddddddd..to top it off, the people there walk super fast that I automatically walk fast even though I dont have important things to settled. geeeesh!
I walked so fast to the MRT stations though the trains are like 3 minutes apart so whats the point of walking bloody fast when you can get the next train in less than 5 minutes? LOLS!
But these things are good. Honestly. Cause I hate people who walk really slow and taking their own sweet time to makan angin in the middle of the road. Oh please la..kalau nak makan angin,tepi sedikit boleh???? It is so annoying ok especially when there's a couple walking as slow as they could in front of me hand by hand or sometimes the guy's hand is at the girl's ass wtf! OH PLEASE! go get a room please!
I think I did my cardio well while staying in Singapore. I walked a lot there! LIKE A LOT!
There are numerous malls available and each one of them is soooooo big that I could have build bulk of calf muscle from having too much of walking! *ok memang salah penggunaan but I still wanna use it :p*

OMG..this has gone way way wayyyy out of the main topic.

ok ok back to my elective thingy

So today is my fourth class and guess whaaaaaaaaaat.
I can swim already! yippie yay yay!
tho only in 1.2-1.4 metres depth but still!!! Its an achievement for me Im so happy that I can eat my goggles!!! wtf.
happy gilos weh!
yeah I'm a fast learner *coughcough* :p

So tomorrow will be my fifth class and my instructor wants to teach me swimming in the 7ft. of depths part. *gulps*

THIS IS SCARY!

I dont afraid of water but I'm partly phobia of deep water. erkk..
I dont feel easy when my leg doesnt touch the floor of the pool when I stand straight.

Hope all goes well tomorrow.

I'm one happy student today :D

Oh-oh tadi ada pakcik gatal omgggggg. He's a professor from Vietnam (ok teringat kat all my Vietnamese profs back in BJ). This guy is super talkative that I feel like shutting him off each time he opens his mouth. And he stares at me while I swim!!! and commented on my legs and hands WTF!!! I know he meant good la as he was advicing me what to do yada yada but I have my instructor with me!! so leave me alone!!!!
Then my instructor pon asked me to be careful with him as he is gatal. He's a divorcee apparently so no wonder la why he's gatal. He even dared to ask me whether I have a boyfriend or not pffffttt WTFWTF! then my instructor quickly said oh shes single but not available. *LOL*!!!!
now where's my boyfriend again? BAHAHAHAHAHAHA

well at least that can keep him away from me right. and oh oh, he asked me whether my "friend" is medical student too? Then I just said yes! WAKAKAKAKA. again, Where's my medical student boyfriend??? :DDDDDDD

ok now tolong lah esok dia takde. Or I will have to swim at another end trying to run away from him hoping he will not come to me like what he did today. blergh.

Salah...Just Go Do It...FUNNY Sheikh Alaa Elsayed...

2012-01-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

ok this time its not on the songs that i like. or the one that reminds me of someone or something

waitttt..dont go away just yet.

Found this video from proudduck.com (thanx for sharing Vivy! :D), its about Solat. An obligatory for each and every Muslims who are able to do so.
I admit that I'm not a big fan of islamic videos because honestly I couldnt really get most of the things they're saying especially when they throw all the hadiths available. I got confused and yeah, lets just press the X button up there shall we. haha! yeah im that dumb ass.

Butttt..I prefer something like this. VERY STRAIGHT FORWARD! the message that he is trying to tell us is very very very clear! in fact, I bet the non-muslims can get the message too!
I'm not sharing this video to show off to you guys that I'm an alim ulama girl yadayada.
hell no! I'm not even one of them.

I'm sharing this vids to those who's having the same problem as I am. which is couldnt understand the other islamic talks that most of the contents are about hadith this and that (no doubt that hadiths is really really reallllly important as it's the proof of everything that you said but when 3/4 of your talks is about it, I admit that I got lost at the very end)

Another person that I like is Ustaz Hassan Din (from Malaysia obviously). He is so semangat and it just boost my spirit to watch him every time I stumble upon him on tv (Tanyalah Ustaz). I just love the way he delivers his speech, memang tertusuk kalbu lah especially bab-bab yang u-know-what. huhu

Anyways,they said Ustaz Azhar Idrus pun best. hmph, I should check his video out after this.

Sem 8: Elective course

2012-01-04T13:13:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

I'm currently on my 2 months "break" now. Why is it break with apostrophe??
Because we still need to do something and at the end of it, we have to submit a 2000-3000 words report to IMU. -.-'''

So for my elective course this time, we've been given choices to choose between medical and non-medical stuff to do. Of course I go for the non-medical thing!
I wanted to do travelling. But I have no partner to do so and I'm not keen to travel outside of Malaysia alone. psh. Yes,i'm a lone ranger where I dont mind going shopping alone, eating at a restaurant alone or watching movies alone. But travelling alone????? ermmmm.. i dont have the guts to that for the time being. Maybe in future when I'm already working, and tired of it and wanted a holiday to ease the burden on my shoulder, wa-lahhh an island vacation is a MUST! with or without a partner, the trip must go on. *and now I cant stopped google-ing island of paradise around the world -.-'''*

Back to the main topic here..soooooooooooo, I've chosen to go for a swimming class for 1 month. Found a place, a lady instructor and walllah..my class starts today! *gulps*

Honestly, I'm super duper cuak! YES I KNOW IT SOUNDS SILLY!
But deep water and me are not best buddy. We dont really click very well.
And that is why I wanna go for a swimming class. Its not cool okay when you're surrounded with friends who can swim and keep on telling you yang swimming itu best!
hailahhhh.
Plus my mentor seemed to be happy with my choice for Elective. *ada harapan nak dapat A muahahaha*

I can barely hold my breaths inside water. and now with my nose blocked, I wonder how my class will go on today.
I opted for morning class, but my instructor is only free from 5-7 pm. OMG. petang where there'll be so many people around anddddd the hot scorching weather. ZOMG! ZOMG! ZOMG! *panic*

swimming attire - checked
swimming cap - checked
swimming goggle - checked

4 hours to go..tick tock tick tock..

Will update tonight about my 1st class. (kalau rajin la :p)

so its 2012 already huh?

2012-01-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

As you may already know, 1st January not only signifies New Year to me but it is also my birthday!
Happy happy ~~17th~~ birthday to meeee! :D:D:D

Mama and papa wanted to make a celebration but I told them none of my friends were around as its a long weekend and everyone went back to their hometown.
But mama still cooked something and invited my aunt who lives few doors away from my house. takde cake pon just makan-makan biasa je.

A day before, we went to Habib Jewel at Alamanda and mom insisted on me choosing diamond ring as my birthday present. I was like whaaaaaaaaaaaat?! DIAMOND RING? gile hape.no-no. I dont fancy jewellery but I admit that I love one of the ring as its a diamond SOLITAIRE ring and it has 70% discount. worth every penny tapiiiiiii me being me.. I said its ok cause I dont want jewellery as my present plus i dont really like ring. For a record, i've never own any ring for the past 23 years of life. I have earrings, bangles, anklet, necklace but not ring. And I know mama wants to buy for her own cause shes a biggggggggggg fan of jewelleries so tak nak lah potong stim buy for me pulak kan.

And now i feel like an idiot! I should have just said yes to the offer and ta-dahhh now i've got a diamond ring sitting nicely on my ring finger!
no need to wait for my knight in shining armour to come and handed me a diamond ring while proposing to me with the most romantic background music playing (say Forever in Love by Kenny G) in a fancy restaurant witnessed by close friends whos been hiding behind the curtains and in the kitchen! *cries*
romantic-cheesy much? HAHA!

pfffffttttt. The offer only valid for that day. So now, I have to wait for another 362 days for the same kind of offer from mama to come and this time I'll surely grab it! yeeehaaaa~
No more hesitancy, no more no to jewellery! hekhek

So tonight, they made a birthday surprise for me! To be honest, I wasnt expecting any celebration since its already 3rd of Jan and I dont think anyone is in the mood of celebrating birthday.
It started with Aten who ajak-ed me dinner since its been awhile we had dinner together. The initial plan was to had dinner with her and her boyfriend. I was a bit reluctant at first cause I dont wanna kacau them dating since he's busy working and they rarely seen each other. Me being a good hearted friend (cewahh :P) of course lah tak nak kacau. But she insisted and I thought why the heck, join je lah. I did not suspect anything and in fact I asked her to ajak Mija so that I have teman in case she and bf wants to go somewhere after that. But she said its ok. Soooooo, dinner for three it is.
The bf picked me up at home and off we go to Piza Italia. I still did not suspect anything and thanks to my rabun malam, I failed to spot Afiq's car nearby our parking spot!
So when I went into the resataurant, I saw them and they started singing "happy birthday" song..waaaa agak malu di situ but luckily there wasnt so many crowds around.

And then I saw my birthday cake..i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...MY BIRTHDAY CAKE! 1st BIRTHDAY CAKE! ice cream cake! sedap!!!!!! :D:D:D
I was too excited that I forgot to capture the moments. dangggggggg~
ada sekeping gambar sahaja di facebook and thanks to hareez for the pic :D

There were mija, ema, afiq, bela who came all the way from shah alam *awwww*, wong and hareez. plus the three of us who came later.

Then, Aten and Mija handed me their gift. *again insert awwwwwwwwwwwww*
handbag! I LOVE IT!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

the bag is sooo me! and I dont have that colour yet. was looking for something like that on my trip to Singapore last week but couldnt find anything nice.

THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!

I honestly dont know what to say cause sumpah terharuuuuuuu!! with everything!
So everybody, THANK YOU AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN! only Him can repay what you did to me tonight.
memang lah you guys will fikir, ala surprise birthday je, whats the big fuss about..but then its the thought and effort to get it done that matters ok!
:')

plusssss! there're no tepung and telor which is a big PHEWWWWWWWWWW! *muka lega*
hehehehe :p

my humble and honest opinion about ombak rindu

2011-12-12T22:38:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

Ok harini baru ada semangat nak update pasal "missing wave" atau melayunya ombak rindu.

I've watched this movie one day after it released tapi sekarang baru nak update sebabbbbbbbbbbb..

1) ok i maybe biased here sebab aku da baca novel dia dulu 2-3 round and fell in love with the story so bila diadaptasi kan ke film, of course i want more! of course aku nak scene-scene best dan bukan SAMPAH! of course aku nak aaron aziz jadi hareez. eh.. hehehe

2) Honestly, film ni SAMPAH..why sampah????
i. dalam banyak-banyak pelakon, watak Hareez and Datin Sufiah JE yang menjadi. ok aku bukan ckp ni sebab aku suka gila kat aaron aziz tu tapi sebab memang dia pandai bawak watak anak lelaki orang kaya yang berlagak gila babs and sombong and tak ingat Tuhan and pergi clubbing and HANDSOME! and bawak keta mahal. haaaa ape lagi criteria ko nak?

ii. Scene dia semua kejap-kejap je. like aku baru nak feel-feel, sekali tukar scene. dah la dari 1 scene to another sangatlahhh abrupt. macam ehhh da scene lain? and then ada one part (tataw la kalau jusco sban nye tgv je hampeh) blur glr scene die. ak yang pakai spec teros bukak spec sbb ingat ade habuk ke sekali mmg blur. siap tanya member sebelah, dia pon cakap, haah blur. like apekah??? bukannya aku mintak scene tutttt dia lama-lama pon but scene lain lain la.

iii. Lagu sama yang diulang berjuta-juta kali dalam movie ni. memang la lagu tu sedap and aku suka gila sampai dok dengar hari-hari tanpa jemu ha. tapiiiii ak tak de la nk dengar lagu tu everytime dalam cerita tu. abis semua scene sedih la ko nak pasang lagu tu? dah tu aku bukannya feel kat movie, tapi feel kat lagu! #epicfail. kot ye pon nak berlagu,pasang melodi dia je ke dah la..or ko buat la lagi satu lagu haaa.takyah la nak belasah satu lagu je.

(ok aku da lupa point point penting lagi ni...adehh tu la sape suruh tanggoh update -.-''')

iv. ok dah ingat! part yang doc and nurse datang rumah tu. Setahu aku lah kan..setahu aku mana ada doc kerajaan and nurse kerajaan RAJIN GILA buat house call! ini bukan oversea ok. even oversea pon, housecall pvt doc yg buat (if im not mistaken). ok la fine la doctor tu doctor pvt tapiiiiiiiii nurse tu KONFEM kerajaan sebab uniform dia! ok la fine la nurse tu buat over time kat pvt clinic after abis shift kerja dia and dia memang tak penat pon kerja kat hosp govt, tu yang suka sangat nak buat OT kat pvt clinic. -.-''' sungguh irrelevant! duh~ kalau ko tanya mana-mana nurse, semua akan mengeluh penat gila kerja kat hospital gomen tu ok. and memang gila lah sape yang pegi buat OT lak lepas abis shift. on weekend maybe la or on off days dorg.

v. haaaaaaaa...part after eksiden. si hareez ni kena hantar pi columbia hosp as seen on one of the scene. ok la fine la TAPI APESAL NURSE DIA PUNYA BAJU HOSPITAL SALAM????? ITS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS KOT KAT BELAH KIRI ATAS T*T*K DIA ADA TAG SALAM! haih..tak standard ke amik gambar depan hospital Salam?? bukan memang banyak gile drama/film shoot dekat hospital tu ke. so whats wrong with amik gamba depan hospital tu? ok la fine la..director lupa nak amik and malas nak pegi seremban semata so main redah je amik gamba depan columbia. fine la fine la..-.-'''.. HELLO these minute details penting ya rabbbbbi kotttt.. well at least to me!

vi. time izzah kena warded. YA AMPUN SELAMA NI TERROR JE AKU TENGOK PELAKON MALAYSIA NI ADE IV DRIP KAT TANGAN. SIAP BER-BRANULA LAGI MEMANG AKU SALUTE LA. TAPIIII NI APEHALLL LA IV DRIP MEN LETAK JE? DAH TAK SEMPAT SGT KE MASE SHOOTING SCENE TU? DAH LA TERBALIK PASTU MAIN TAMPAL JE DGN MICROPORE. PASTU BRANULA PON TAKDE. OK BILA SAMPAI SINI MEMANG AKU DA GELAK KAW-KAW WALAUPON PART NI SUPPOSED TO BE SEDIH (SEDIH KE? :P)

vii. ok back to scene awal-awal..apesal hareez tu cepat sgt fall for izzah? ye la aku taw la movie tu tak boleh la buat sampai 5 jam but at least ko bole je tunjuk scene-scene yang best lagi dr novel tu. tu la lain kali ajak la penulis novel nya tulis skrip tu.tak payah la sombong sangat semua benda nak buat sendiri. ko nye imagination sorry to say, FAIL LA!

viii. banyak unnecessary scene dalam tu but aku dah tak ingat la dangggggg!!!! haruskah aku tonton kembali? WAKAKAKA HELL NO! kalau belanja boleh la, sebab nak buat gelak lagi..

ix. lisa surihani pulak ha.ok peminat dia jangan jeling dulu..dengar ni dulu.hehe..lisa ni pandai berlakon.no doubt but kalau watak yg bukan heroin, macam kureng la. dah la dok speaking-speaking je.fine la english ko bagus.takde sebutan yg salah tapiiiiii BILA KO JERIT-JERIT SPEAKING AKU TAK PAHAM LA KO CAKAP APE. DAH LA TAKDE SUBTITLE KAN. SO AKU TERNGANGA JE LA DENGAR KO JERIT. PASTU YG AKU BOLEH TANGKAP IS "WHATTT? WHATTT?". ADEHHHH.. orang lain jerit gak.aku paham je butir-butir nya. ok fine la aku ni bodoh lembap english kot.thats why tak paham. -.-''

x. entah kenapa aku tak berkenan betol dengan awal-awalllll dia yang si izzah dok landing terkulai atas batu kat pantai tu.. macam errrrr.. ni ombak rindu oiii bukan duyung la!

aiyoooo 10 point je boleh dikeluarkan. damn! apesal la aku lambat update. inilah padahnya..
tak apa la.kesian lak nak bash lebih-lebih. kang ade peminat yg nangis sampai abis satu kotak tissue bash aku pulak kat sini. HAHAHA!

ok before korang membash aku, meh sini aku cakap eh yang I do watch malay movies and dramas. boleh tanya member-member aku untuk kepastian or tgk la kat label movie review kat tepi ni ha. Aku bukan bash sebab "eh mcm bes nak bash cerita melayu" tapi sebab I'm super disappointed with it. Looked forward gila gila kot for this movie. sekaliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..hmmmmm..ontah lah tak dapek den nak kobarkan laie ha.
aku bukan ape weh, detail-detail kecik tu penting kot! kalau detail besar pon dah ke laut, detail kecik ape lgi kan? and sorry la sebab aku ni observant gila. I was born to be that way especially in this area nak buek cmno? cuba kalau bab medic, mesti aku ke laut! wahaha..

okay.kalau malam ni aku mimpi pulak cerita ni..nanti aku tambah lagi la eh point-point di atas. or anda bolh sumbangkan dalam ruang comment. u're most welcome :)

Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

2011-12-11T02:50:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

not trying to be emotional so early in the morning.
I just came across this song in Lipstick Jungle and it defines me perfectly.
ok sounds like a loser and pathetic but I just have to put it here..haha!

anyways, I love love love Joe Bennett in Lipstick Jungle. He is cynical and yet the sweetest person ever!!! oh wait there's also Kirby Atwood played by the one and only Robert Buckley who has the flawless body ever! fuhhhh~ berpeluh tgk him shirtless. haha!
And at last I'm done watching the series. 2 seasons je pon. :p

p/s: saw someone that reminded me of him this afternoon. painful it is. *sigh*

"Chammak challo" (Official video song) 'Ra.One' Shahrukh khan, Kareena K...

2011-12-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

hi hi!
ok this time, its a hiindi song! hehe..

Wanna be my Chamak Challo!

uuuuuu SRK is drop dead gorgeous in here! spiky hair, flawless skin, BLUE EYES ftw!!!!
fuhhhhh~ first time, jatuh hati kat SRK ni! ngehhh~

Anyways, this is from the latest movie, Ra One..I havent watched it yet so couldnt comment much about it.
And this song is originally sang by AKON! AKON yawwww! Akon nyanyi hindustan!
Thanks to Phee for the info~ :)

Soooo wanna be my chamak challo?

:)

i love you for a thousand years

2011-11-27T22:53:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

I've just finished watching Breaking Dawn part 1, the uncut version.

Couldnt be bothered to watch it in cinema as I received many..MANY bad comments about it. On how suddenly 1 scene jump to another scene and leave the viewers tertanya-tanya what happen in between the scenes.

ceh~

So I looked out for the torrent file and ta-dahhh I found a good copy of it. Its not DVDrip file so dont ask me about the quality. But I'm fully satisfied with this one cause the video and audio both are clear! eventhough its just a camera recorder in a cinema as I can see shadows of people standing in the middle of the movie. LOL

Anyways...back to the movie. I seriously cannot understand why they cut the scenes!
Yes I know its inappropriate but I swear to God I've seen this kind of scene in cinema for other movies! like for so many times already.
Its just a scene where a couple kiss and cuddle. Yes they're naked but theres no boobs or butts or penis been showed. NOTHING! just both of them kissing-kissing-cuddling..thats it!
Tu pon nak potong ke? abis tu yg film-film before ni lepas je.
hmph.

And then my friend told me they cut the birthing scene too. FORGODSAKE she delivered the baby via c-sec. NOT EVEN SVD yg ko nak censored kan pon. Plus bukannya camera focus kt the process of taking out the baby pon. More to Bella ade la as she was struggling with the process.
haih. Seriously censorship board, you need to do a lot of revision about everything!

Cause honestly, I dont see any reason for you to censored those scenes. It just doesnt make sense to me.

Anyways, not gonna waste my time talking about that.

The movie.... Well I'm really really happy for the movie. Edward is the sweetest! (GO TEAM EDWARD!!!!!) im not a fan of Jacob so couldnt say much about him.hehe.

If only it is a real movie, Bella is the luckiest girl in the universe! And I bet every single girls out there will be jealous towards her including yours truly.

haih..I'm a sucker for romantic cheesy movie la..I practically smiled the whole time watching it can you imagine that?! :) To start with, the wedding was perfectly perfect. The deco's, the wooden chairs, the altar.haihhhhh.Bella is a lucky bit*h! haha!

The gown..hmm..in my opinion, it can be better. I only like the details at the back. The front was too plain and I dont like it. I even think of hatta dolmat while watching the dress as this guy here likes to do heavy details on wedding dress so I thought, it would look much much better if there're beadings or sequins or crystals or some laces in front.haha!
I'm a grand wedding sucker la what to do~
The exchange vows part was ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..mesmerizing! they looked into each other's eyes and promise to blablablablabla..awwwwwwwwwwwww~ how can you not smile watching it?!
But whats with her reaction when she walked to the altar with her dad..macam sembelit je aku tengok ha.geesh,you should be on cloud nine la!
moving on...
The honeymoon was fantastic! An island as a gift whom are you kidding me?????!
hahaha! super romantic and arghhhh I'm really bad at describing things. Lack of adjectives here but you know what I mean. hehe.
The katil patah..well, no comment about that *cough-cough*. I honestly wouldnt mind has a katil patah as long as Edward is mine! LOLS! ok this is too much bee.
Remember that you have so many silent readers out there who will suddenly popped up and mention one or two lines from here.

HAHHHHHHH TERASA TAK? wakakakaka..:p

So now I cant wait to watch Part 2! oh cepatlah keluarrr! not gonna miss it as how I missed watching Harry Potter part 2. Actually, I still havent watched it until now -.-''''

Now I'm gonna go find my Cullen. Pardon me.

p/s: I rated this movie 10/10! but if you're not into romantic-cheesy stuff, dont watch it! cause breaking dawn part 1 is all about romanticism between Bella and Edward! :D
pp/s: I still hate Bella no matter what :p

tahun baru maka entry baru

2011-11-26T19:57:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

Well to non-Muslims readers jangan terkejot why I'm celebrating 2012 so darn early.

Its for the Islamic year actually. We've entered 1433 H which means New Year for the Muslims and new book for us to fill in with good deeds or even the bad ones too.

I'm no saint to preach more on this thing but in lay man explanation, HENCE THE PUBLIC HOLIDAY ON MONDAY :)

Oleh itu, dalam tahun baru ini marilah berusaha mengubah perangai yang tak senonoh ini kepada yang molek-molek. As such I need to buck up myself to become a better muslimah and refrain all negative thoughts that has been lingering on my mind since forever. Sometimes these things couldnt be help it. Its there and somehow you just have to think about it. Sooooo, I need to learn to ignore it and learn how to transform it into something pleasant.

So far, I have managed to pull myself out of becoming a very negative person. I'm now a more positive and vibrant person in which whenever there's flaws in any job that I'm assigned to, I'll think of the other way round. As in what makes the flaws and how can I undo it.
I like the way I am now. People may not noticed it but who cares. As long as you yourself realised the change in you, that is already an achievement,no?

I've also tried to put on positive energy surrounds me every single day. From the time I open my eyes in the morning till I shut them at night. I'm very very bad at explaining things but somehow, If you think positive from the time you rise and keeps on with the positive hat through out the day, somehow the ever-so-ridiculous-day will turn out to be out of your expectation!

So ladies and gentlemen, start the day with a smile and pray to the Man above to smoothen your journey all day long.
However bear in mind that there will always be stumbling block along the way but hey, THAT'S LIFE! what would your life be if everything is popcorn and candy heh?

okay okay I'm not trying to be a counsellor here, but this is what I see everyday; negative things from people surrounds me. So if you happen to read this which I think you are!! (since someone unexpectedly blurted out something from here!!!! well thanx to whoever giving out or show my blog to him), let us all throw away all the negative thinking shall we?

I'm no saint
I'm no sin-free
I'm no dean's list
I'm no A student
I'm no good person
I'm no obedient slave to Him

I'm just a human like you :)
And I'm struggling to become a better one day by day.

p/s: I've thought about privatising this site AGAIN. but nahhh..let them read. well, people likes to know about your life kan. so let them read ok :)

2011-11-21T11:44:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

My Monday is indescribable.

You'll know why if you follow my twitter.

I'm surprised beyond words. Never expect any of this before.

But most importantly, I don't know what is playing on my mind right now. Or even my heart.
I don't know whether I should be sad or happy..sobbing or giggling..ignoring or care about it.

I'm clueless though I shouldn't be

Of Aging process to theatre to ENT

2011-11-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

One of my girlfriend said that I'm emo today. Well actually, honestly I didnt realised that.
Maybe because of less talking and doing things on my own kot that she thought I'm emo.

hmm.
I dont know. Its just me. Trying not to depend on others and survive all the shits in life.

Well basically I'm trying to live my pathetic life la ok.haha!

And now I dont know why nowadays, I'm not up to melepak-lepak anymore.
Previously, I was the one who lovesssss to hang out doing NOTHING! like totally wasting time sitting at mamak or any kedai makan and all we do is minum and talking crap.
Now, all I want to do is go back home, hide underneath my comforter or sit in front of the laptop.

I feel old! what has happened to me?!
Is this one of the aging process? yikes! my birthday is less than a month and a half and I already feeling all this thing?! heeeeeeeee!

Same goes to tonight where all of them will be going for a midnight movie and I decided not to. Cause its too late and I dont wanna go back home in the wee hours of the morning.
Plus I have actually thought of watching it alone next week. Not that I'm a loser with no friends whatsoever, but watching alone is awesome! I mean you get to decide everything on your own! I'm indecisive and I think you know that but when you're alone, you have to decide whatever things you gonna do on your own so in that way, I get to decide without thinking about others in which will make my decision making process so much more easier! hence indecisive no more!

:)

But since one of my girlfriend offered to watch with me so why not. Plus its been awhile since we had our movie date together-gether. haha! :D

Anyways, both of us went to a theatre last Monday entitled Badai Semalam.

And yes ade Aaron Aziz!!!!! wooooooooooot-wooooooooot! although the seating was not as striking as The secret life of Nora's but then I got to see him live! well random facts about him is he CAN'T DANCE! LOLOLS!!!
super funny to see him putting effort into dancing. hahahahahaha! kayuuuuuuu! :p

Tapiiii dia memang lah macho ya rabbi! fuhhhh fuhhhh!

Oh by the way, if you guys havent watched it yet, go grab your tickets cause its worth to watch. Not because of Aaron Aziz alone but because of the other fantastic actors and actresses and the storyline though I dont like the ending. sheeeeshhh. not gonna put any spoiler here. :p

On a different note, I'm in ENT already. So far I've encountered him thrice but I dont feel anything! I dont feel the excitement that I usually felt whenever I see him around.
Thank You God! You've granted my doa. :')
Once I was so hooked up to him that I will look for him whenever I stepped into HTJ.
But anyways, my friends still think that I like him so whatever la.
ENT is so far so good.I got to watched mastoid exploration where the surgeon make a hole at the mastoid bone. It was something new for me as I had never seen it before. memang agak jakun la time tengok tu. And the surgeon @ ENT HOD was super nice that he explained to us before and after the operation.
And now I really hope that the 2nd week of ENT is much more exciting than the first one.

Thats all for now I guess. toodles!
And have a nice weekend :)

Joss Stone - L-O-V-E

2011-11-16T18:56:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

My all time favourite rendition of L-O-V-E!!!

her sexy voice just turnnnnnn me on! :D

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Yes, love was made for me and you

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

minor posting part 2

2011-11-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

Remember my entry about minor posting part 1 where I was practically pengsan everyday?

Well-well, on the second week of Dermato, everything HAS CHANGED!

I was free for the whole week! haha surprise-surprise. Sampai sempat lah tidur petang every single day. Unlike the week before.

ish.. sampai I myself confius and cuak sebab free sgt.

Class cancel la.. sort of kena halau la.. sort of escape la..

hmph..

So esok will be my first day in ENT or Otorynolaryngology or Ear,nose and throat.
lets see how ENT works. Tgk jadual mcm free gak je. LOL!
siap esok pagi tak tau nak pergi OT or clinic. tah-tah end up tak pergi mana-mana kan.
zzzzzzzz

no-no..tak boleh main-main lagi this time around. focusssssssssssssss!!!!

That's it for Henry Burton :(

2011-11-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

*sighhhhhhhhhhhh*

Why must Greys put an end to Henry Burton???!!!!
why oh why!!!!

for those who havent watched it yet, HE DIED! on the operating table. Under Yang and Chief's hands!

Its a sad,sad,sadddd episode. Teddy is yet to know as she was operating on another patient.
Cant wait for this week's episode as I wonder how her reaction will be. It must be a lot of pain for her as she is so much in love with Henry now. Just imagine if you lost your husband all of a sudden when you least expecting it.

oh god sedih gila kalau jadi kat aku! meroyannnn~ wuuuuuuuu~

Well its a price to pay if you're marrying someone with chronic illness which has bad prognosis.
And if you follow the series, the reason she married him is because of the medical insurance. So that he will have the benefits from her insurance (something like that). Personally, I think its a good thing to do. Its not that you're desperate to get married but since you're a doctor and you know that you can save him in some way, why not kan? I would do the same thing if I were in her shoe. Seriously.

But now Teddy is left alone. Again. oh gosh. I thought they will live happily ever after as he wanted to go to medical school and who knows he might be one of the residents in Seattle Grace in the next season.
wuwuwuwuwu~
kuciwa~

the Bass has finally spoken

2011-11-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

WARNING: This is about Gossip Girl. For those who loathe them, you can always click on the button on the top right corner thank you very much.

Well the latest episode has left a huge impact on me.
The part where Chuck made an epic apology to let Blair go for real this time.

Chuck: I'm not here to apologize about what happened tonight..
Blair: Then.. what do you here to apologize for?
Chuck: Everything else.. I'm sorry for losing my temper the night you told me that Louis purposed you, sorry for not waiting longer at the Empire State Building, I'm sorry for treating you like property, I'm sorry I didn't tell you I loved you when I know I did and most of all I'm sorry that I give up on us when you never did..
Blair was speechless and touched.

My heart sank literally right after the scene! and the words made me move to tears! For the first time ever, Chuck is expressing his words genuinely from the bottom of his heart. And those words are not meant to propose to her or to make her happy. But to apologize and letting her go. :'(

I'm always a fan of Chuck and Blair no matter what the world said about them. They are perfect for each other since season 1.
But it seems like they will not get back together no more after this. *shucks*

Now tell me the reasons why I still need to continue watching the show?

Semisonic - Closing Time

2011-11-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

I'm addicted to this song after watching Friends with Benefits for the 243869504356th times.
Yeah I've watched it all over again. :)
But Not the sex part mind you! pffftttt~

Closing time - opens up the door and let you out into the world.
Closing time - turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time - one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time - you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
Closing time - this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters
come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found
a
friend.
Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from...

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send...

Honestly, I dont understand the meaning of the lyrics up there. LOL

2011-11-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

I'm not in a right state of mind now

I'm annoyed. By so many things. By everyone.

oh hati sila bertenang pls! :(

2011-11-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

Its here again.

Same old thing.

Nothing has changed since the last time it came.

I wonder how long more should I bear with it.

I guess I need to take my own steps to avoid it for as long as I can.

I already have some plans and I do hope I will be able to get it done. amin!

I dont deserve all this. I have had enough with it.

Baby steps have been made and I shall take it seriously this time around.

And keep on praying to the Man up there for my goodness sake.

And others too.

Sorry for wasting your precious time reading this unambiguous entry.
:)

minor posting part 1

2011-11-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

I have never felt this TIRED for the whole effing week.
Minor posting has absolutely drains the energy out of me. I went home and collapse every single night. The energy left in me is close to zero.
I wonder how my working life would be! *yikesss*

Anyhow, Dermatology has been nice to me (at least) so far. It is all about spot diagnosis. But yeah you need to have some basic especially in describing the lesions and ta-dahhh you can definitely come out with a diagnosis right after that.

Along with that, your history taking must be good. There are a list of questions that YOU NEED to ask in order to come with a differential diagnosis.
more or less like this:-

Introduction
Introduce yourself, stress confidentiality and gain consent to take a history from the patient
Name, age, occupation (contact dermatitis may be caused by chemicals or products used at work)

Presenting Complaint (PC)
Open questions:
What seems to be the problem today?
Can you describe your skin problem?

History of Presenting Complaint (HPC)
When did it start?
How did it start?
Where did it start?
Has it changed over time?
Where is it now?
Is anywhere else? (spread/distribution)
What does it feel like?
Does anything make it better or worse?
Experienced this before?

Symptoms
Itch
Pain
Bleeding
Discharge
Blisters

Any treatment used? (This can help when formulating a treatment plan. You don't want to give the patient something that they are not keen to try again. Perhaps they have been using herbal remedies too.)
Contact history - scabies, chickenpox (contagious conditions)
Noticed any problems with your mouth, nails, joints, scalp or hair? (Lichen Planus can cause white streaks in the mouth called Wickham's striae and ulcers arise in Behcet Disease. Psoriasis can cause arthritis and nail changes such as pitting.)
How do you feel otherwise? A systematic review could be used here as the presence of pyrexia and malaise are important. Many systemic disease have associated skin conditions - diabetes mellitus and Crohn's disease.

Past Medical History (PMH)
How is your general health?
Previous skin condition?
Asthma, hayfever or eczema? (Signs of atopy)

Family History (FH)
Eczema
Hayfever
Asthma
Psoriasis
Skin cancers

Drug History (DH)
Current medications and length of use (Some medications can cause skin reactions. For example the pill can cause erythema nodosum)
Allergies
Skin reactions - nickel (some jewellery contains nickel which can cause a contact dermatitis)
Use any cosmetics or moisturising creams?

Travel History (TH)
Where do you come from?
Been abroad recently?
A lot of sun exposure?
Use any suncream - what factor?
What does your skin do in the sun? - burn, tan easily

Asking questions about the patient's skin type allows you to assess the patients's risk of sun related skin conditions such as actinic keratoses and melanomas. Skin type is classified into 6 categories using the Fitzpatrick Classification Scale.

Social History (SH)
Alcohol
Smoking
Home situation - who's there, support available
Changes - washing powder, pet (may aggravate skin conditions)
Hobbies - gardening (In America plants such as poison ivy can commonly cause a contact dermatitis)
Any stressful events - stress can precipitate skin conditions

Sexual History
Current relationship status - sexually active?
Any symptoms down below - pain, discharge, skin changes?
Does their partner have any symptoms?
Use of condom?

This can be a tricky topic to cover but some sexually transmitted diseases are associated with skin conditions (herpes, syphilis). Try to get a rough idea about the patient's sexual history in order to assess their risk of an infection.

How is this skin problem affecting your day to day life?

This is a VERY important question. Skin conditions can have a major impact on a patient's life. Ask about the effect it has on hobbies, work, social activities and that patient's choice of clothing (some patients with psoriasis have to avoid dark clothing due to skin flaking).

Ideas, Concerns and Expectations (ICE)
What do you think may be causing this skin problem?
Any particular concerns/worries?

banyak kan but they are all important questions.

I seem to like dermato pulak now. But it is still too early to tell and my parents wouldnt like it if I go into dermato in the future. Yes I know we must obey our parents yadayada but then its gonna be me whos facing the exams or workloads so every decision must be made solely by yours truly.

On another note, Sunday is hari raya haji! I can still remember last year's raya haji where I went to straightened my hair when everyone else is busy going to the mosque for prayers and cow slaughtering. Raya nowadays are not like those days. Though I was busy during Raya Aidilfitri but the feelings is not the same without a kampung and my late grandmother. (oh I missed her so much! :( ) There are still some emptiness depsite all the joy and laughter I had. *sigh*

ok now any guy with a kampung totally turns me on! LOLOLS!

from major to minor

2011-10-28T20:27:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

I'm now done with the Major posting (Family medicine, Orthopaedics and Psychiatry)
Monday marks the starting of Minor posting which consists of Dermatology, ENT (gulps), Opthalmology and A&E.

So just now we ended the posting with Exam (like duhhh)
SAQ paper for all three. Means there were 3 separate papers and each paper is allocated for 40 minutes.

I can say that I'm partly screwed over the papers. YES ALL OF THEM!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

My fault la for studying at the very last minute and at the same time the body suddenly feels like rising the temperature and the nose decided to be congested just to tease the owner of the body which is ME!!!!!!!!

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

ok no more complaining cause it is my fault from the very beginning.

So lesson learned and move on!

Back to the minor posting, well like what I've seen from the Group B members who have finished their minor posting (I'm in group C by the way), so far it is not the best posting at all. Dont get too happy when you hear the name, MINOR as in less ward work/clinic/class. DREAM ONNNNNNNNNN!

We'll soon be occupied with clinics, Case presentation and COMMON SESSION! which is a seminar presented by the dearest student of course. (memang we pay berguni $$$ to IMU to teach ourselves pon! ughhhhh I seriously hate this self directed learning thingy)

And from what I heard, since the lect and HTJ's dr are busy, so sometimes the common session will be combined and you can have those session up until 8 pm!

nice huh?

Presentation by students at 8 friggin pm! who on earth gonna listen to that? LIKE SERIOUSLY!

Seminar at 10 am or 2 pm pon tak ada orang dengar ini kan at 8 pm! haha.

YES! I have to be positive and all but some things are just so ridiculous that I dont think I can be positive about it. -.-''''

Enough of ramblings.

Shall go perform my prayer and stay calm....

I'll try to Embrace Monday with an open heart ok.

bye!

Hook up with Allah, Allah will hook you up

2011-10-23T20:05:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

Found an article on the title above.
And I would like to quote couple of sentences from the article.

Here it goes....

"Every time you glance up and see someone you wish you could be with, turn away and in that moment ask Allah to bless you with a spouse who will be the sweetness of your eyes. Would not Allah listen to and accept your supplication to Him? How could Allah possibly not accept the supplication of His adamant worshipper who is painfully struggling to maintain his or her modesty and guard his or her chastity? The Prophet ﷺ has encouraged us to “Ask and you will be given…” (at-Tirmithi) Allah will give you! How could He not when you are striving only for His Sake?"

The words are beautifully written by MARYAM AMIR-EBRAHIMI from www.suhaibwebb.com
*sighhhhhh*

I've been praying day and night for the right one to appear in front of me but I failed to realised that I'm not a great servant to ask for something miracles to happen in my life.

I've sinned a lot. LIKE A LOT!
heck I know we human never runs away from committing sins but me....*sigh*

Each time, I tried to be good or do something that will gives me more reward from the Man above, I FAILED. Terribly. Well at some occasions. *facepalm*

This article hit me real hard on my face. LIKE REAL HARD! if only it can speak to me like literally, oh god, i would have buried myself into the snow in North pole!

"Here’s an idea: Instead of working to please a potential suitor, perhaps we should first seek to please Allah, the One who sows the seed of love in our hearts and can bless us with our dream husband or dream wife."

Easier said than done? Maybe. But what have you got to lose? If at the end of the day you are only increasing in closeness to Allah, increasing in reading the Qur’an, tasting the sweetness of your salah, and making more sincere du`a’ then insha’Allah (if Allah wills) you will have gained more than simply “a spouse” if you get married and you would have gained much more than facebook “cruising for a spouse” time while you’re attempting to find your better half…Insha’Allah you will gain more in this life and the next, and an unwavering relationship with Allah!

ok now i feel like copying and pasting all of the articles here.
You know what,CLICK HERE FOR FULL ARTICLE

there u have it.

Read from top to bottom. Beautiful isnt it? :')

Ok, so now..no more drooling over him,him or him. *cough*
Focus on whats more important in your life.
Try to strengthen your relationship with Him.
Make more ibadahs than what you've done for every single day.
Do not procrastinate when performing ibadahs i.e : solat, Al-Quran recitement.

Lets become a better person. Better Muslims. InsyaAllah...

Hey, How are you?

2011-10-20T18:47:00.001+08:00

hey boo...

I know I know I shouldnt be thinking about him anymore

But he showed up in front of me after so many months! and he still remembers me!!!

"hey, how are you?"

was what he said to me.with a smile on his face! :D

gahhhhhhhhhhh!

not good-not good!

I need to get rid of him from my mind but he keeps on appearing at different ways.
Now tell me what am I suppose to do now?

I'm practically clueless!!!

Anyhow, the simple sentence up there totally made my day :)

2011-10-16T22:54:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

What more can I say...

I'm like the world biggest IDIOT ever!

@%$@*^$!!

I've done it last time and tonight..wallah..I did it again!
Humiliating myself AGAIN! for the 2353971840457690th times -.-''

I realised the after-effect of it butttt I still insist on doing it.

ughhhhhhhhhhhh!

I SERIOUSLY NEED A BIG FAT SLAP ON MY FACE. A HARD ONE! BUT NOT TOO HARD THAT IT WOULD BREAK MY TEETH.

p/s: one of my girlfriend read my previous-previous post (i think) and commented as if I have just had a break up with my boyfriend!

Well her sentence really gave me a smack on my face. I am THAT IDIOT kan.

oh god..I miss the old me~

2011-10-15T11:36:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

The previous entry was made when I was in my idiotic state of mind.period.

And come to think of it...
It is pointless and meaningless.

But I will not take it down cause it will reminds me of how idiot I can be!

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

p/s: I've added him on fb and got excited when he approved me last night. But this morning, I've removed him from my friend list.

Adele - Someone Like You

2011-10-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

I'm not posting this up cause I like it. Although yeah, I love the song but its more of a dedication for myself..

For I am now desolate..

So here it goes....

I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

oh wait..only the bold parts are meaningful to me. the rest are ermmm..nevermind...

and yeah the video clip is sux. I actually expect more than just a girl walking down the street in Paris!

devastated

2011-10-12T23:48:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

A friend of mine told me that he's married.

Mr U smile, I smile..

YES HE'S FREAKING MARRIED!

gahhhhhhhhhhhh!

That's it.
I'm not gonna drool over him anymore. Not gonna look or stalk him in the hospital anymore. And most importantly..I'm not looking forward for ENT posting AT ALL!

gahhhhhhhhhhhh!

I is super sad.

k bye!

p/s: Guess thats why I havent seen him for quite some time. The last time I saw him was during Paeds which was like 2 months ago~

2011-10-09T19:16:00.004+08:00

hey boo...

ORTHO is awesome so far!

Because of few Ortho people that I met. haha!

But sadly this week is the final week of Ortho in HTJ sobsobsob :(

Next Ortho posting will be in Batu Pahat (Mr B zomggg cuak!)
Ortho people in HTJ are all nice, awesome, friendly and most of all they teach us very well. Unlike certain people who always asked us to go back and find the answers by ourselves. pffftttt..

I'm gonna miss Ortho! *cant believe I'm actually saying this! LOL*

2011-10-05T11:35:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

So far Ortho is quite fun despite the fact that we got chased out from the OT yesterday! haha. That was hilarious! dari sebal sebab kena marah teros rasa lawak. Cause the sister mati-mati halau, but Dr. N back up gile2. But at the end, ktrg blah je. haha

Today ade Seminar with the infamous Mr. B via video conference! say whaaaaaaaaat?!
First time ni class using video conference. I wonder how would that be..hmph

Ok ni update tak bermakna.hanya sekadar update.
K bye!

;p

Ortho again

2011-10-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

Tomorrow will be the first day of Orthopaedics posting for this semester. It will only be for 2 weeks. Short period but the timetable will gonna be pack as hell.
Esok..1st day je dah ada CP in the morning..followed by seminar at 10 am and TBL in the afternoon! 3 in 1!!

FUN ISNT IT?

-.-'''''''''

tak pernah lagi 1st day ada sekali 3 package! whoaaaa!
Normally it would be briefing, visit to the ward and thats it. Petang free boleh jimba-jimba. But not tomorrow. nehi-nehi..
Well at least Ema (the leader) said, Friday petang FREEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
*chicken dance*

mari bersabar semuanyaaaa untuk hari esok!

old dusty entry

2011-10-01T21:07:00.004+08:00

hey boo...

I went through the draft just now and found this one post that I wrote 1 year ago. It was written during one of the bad moments of my life. The time when the PMS kicked in together with some other problems. Not a good time if I may recall.

There was a reason why I never publish this but I couldnt trace it. So, here I'm publishing the old dusty post.
Not an important one so you guys are free to click on the exit button on the top right corner :)

(partly edited version)
Its me again.. ok since no one will be going to read my blog anymore hence I can write anything that I want to. its like my online diary ni! woooot2
not that I'm gonna write down about my crush yadayada pongggg..if only I have crush on someone right now.haih.
I have put my heart away like ages ago. Ok,I dont deny the fact that sometimes I do like someone but the feelings is just a superficial ones. not a deep+mushy+lovey-dovey type of feelings. When can I get to be in this situation again ehhh?
I can still remember the last guy that I used to like during secondary sch. I LIKED him soooo much that the feelings were there for almost 3 years! He didnt like me by the way but I still like him. Infact,he liked one of my classmates that they ended up together after SPM. but now,mcm da break up je? hmph!
The feelings was surreal that it took me quite some time to forget him. AND I SUCCEED! his images gone in a blink of an eye. I still remember that one day when I told myself to stop liking him and forget him completely as he will never brings any benefits to you. The feelings that I have for him is just pointless. And that was when I remove him from my mind totally. Even if I went through his FB page now, I will laugh at myself so hard that I can almost fart! haha.ok thats too much revealing of information here. ;p

okkkk,back to the main point up there....YESS! he was the last person. It is a big fat lie if I say I close my heart to every guy in this world lahh kann..I do have huge celebrity crushes. HAHAHA~ and sometimes I do feel like liking a person but the feelings will just be there for like what..2 hours or the longest pon just 1 day!

haihhh..I'm heartless kan! but its a good thing though! by this way,I can make friends with whoever I want too without feelings involvement! I can be with whoever I want to. tapayah nak cover2 ape mende ke kan. :)

butttttttttttttttttttttttt...am a human being. at times,I do wish that I have a crush although he is just a crush. but there will be no benefits pon kannnn! hmph! thats another good point! *bummer*

having a crush is fruitless! You gain no benefits from it except satisfaction.
but satisfaction from what? from just seeing him everyday and you two saying HI! to each other and thats it? Is that what we called satisfaction? I dont think so!

I'm not a brave girl seriously! I'm traditional! in a way that a girl SHOULD NOT go to a guy and confess her feelings to him. Its an embarrassment ok! a big one! what if the guy hates you or doesnt like you back? what if the guy is just playing around you all this while? what if he already HAS A GIRLFRIEND and you dont know about it?
But then if his respond is positive, then you must be one of the lucky ones. Again, most people who confessed their feelings normally already confirmed about it. which means they truly-truly understand what they felt and what the other party felt too. Thats the right time to confess and ta-dahhhh,new lovebirds is in the air woot-woot!

I am being emotional lately. My hormones are acting like a roller coaster. see now terase nak cakap pasal "ANNOYING" pulak. adehhh! but i need to study laaa. bringing laptop to IMU is NOT a GOOD IDEA! cissssssssss..I'm wasting my time for almost 1.5 hours surfing the internet and now I'm blogging! pfffffffffffffft!
HAHAHA!
whatever it is,all the things up there has nothing to do with whats on my mind now. ALL of it just slipped off from no where that even I can traced it from. LOL!
dramatic pulekkk..
toodles!

ok you can stop laughing now.

That was me back then. Immature and emotional 24/7.m
I think I'm more mature now donchu think? *flips hair*

Well, in less than 2 months, I'll be 1 year older than today. But my hopes, my dreams and wishes...most of them are yet to be achieved. Especially on you know what.

Am I giving up on it? Apart of me says yes while the other half says I dont know.

2011-10-01T00:58:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

totally deja-vu
well, subtotal I should say.

anyways, experience has taught me a lot.

So, I'm just:-
Gonna go with the flow this time
Gonna ignore any PMS emo shitty thingy
Gonna act like nothing happened
Gonna close one eye if its really hard for me to accept it (but I think this time around, there will be no problem at all :))

And oh, lets be more independent now. Yeah, I dont depend on people but lets just do things on my own. Mind my own friggin unsettled business.

I hope there will be rainbow coming out at my window tomorrow morning. That would definitely help to cheer up my day :D

for certain someone

2011-09-29T00:58:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

Well-well

If u read my blog zealously then you already know what I'm going to type next.

YOU..YES YOU who shall not be named here.

listen..
Most of the people will say follow your heart whenever you're in doubt cause your heart knows whats best for you.

What I say is follow your own judgement!
Your heart CAN BE MISLEADING sometimes.(well most of the time for me) and hence you need to ignore it once in awhile and follow your judgement.

You're adult enough to think of the right thing to do.

I'm tired of repeating the same thing here..about a girl and a boy who cant seem to become friends because one of them fall on another or both of them fall for each other.
Its ok if the situation allows you to but what if there's no way on earth for you two to be together and blablablablabla......

Yeah I'm no one to decide what's best for you but I do hope that you know what the hell you are doing and DECIDE like pronto!

But if you want my advice...*clears throat*
1) Forget about the feelings and act normally
2) Once you've forgotten about that, DO NOT LOOK BACK
3) If you find it difficult, just IGNORE and focus on whats more important in life!!! for God's sake, dont tell me there's nothing important in your life currently -.-''

I can only advice but you are the one who can change yourself ok.

If you find my post here to be gibberish, you are most welcome to click the exit button on the top right corner. thank you!

toodles~

Skyscraper ( Demi Lovato Cover ) by Gamaliel, Audrey, & Cantika

2011-09-25T19:12:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

here's another video.

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending
Like we never had a chance

Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears, I awaken
and untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better
to watch me while I bleed?

All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here, watch you disappear
Yea--ohh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh Ohhhh!
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

(Like a skyscraper)

Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

But I personally think that they sing better than the original singer. Enjoyyyy~

GP posting yaw!

2011-09-23T21:45:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

I privatised my blog yesterday due to no reason!
but I'v already open it back to public..

Was thinking of privatising it since so many people has discovered my hiding spot here.
*coughhareezcough*

Anyways. I've ended my GP posting today. 5 days have passed by just like that kapooooof!

I learned many things from here and got to practise my skills in blood taking and also suturing!! YES FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I sutured a MAN's forearm! the feeling?
At first, I wasnt so sure about it as I've never tried it on human being but since the doctor was so busy entertaining patient, and this patient here has approximately 7 cm open wound, I was like, what the heck, just give it a try! Plus the doctor seemed to have confident in me! LOLOLS! *rolled eyes hahaha!*
The first time I prick the skin to get the needle inside, I was like ooookaaaayyyyy..it is not the same as what we used to do in csu which was on a chicken skin or a model.. But after 2/3 sutures, I could have feel the adrenaline rush in me. IT WAS FUN believe it or not! *flips hair* Luckily I did not faint as I was fasting on that day and I kept praying to God so that I will stay focus and not getting hypoglycemic attack and faint on the wound!
I did 10 simple interrupted sutures on him without realising that it would cost him 100 friggin ringgit! I thought the cost will be like erm..maybe RM 30-40. heck no!!!! bloody expensive and that is just the sutures. Not including the local anesthetic and medications. patot la all the GP out there can survive dengan jayanya!

As for blood taking, since the clinic is attached with FOMEMA (medical check up for foreign workers) so I got to take blood almost everyday. But I'm still lacking in skill to take blood from a non-prominent vein.haihs.I had to ask the clinic assistant to draw the blood for me. Thank god the patient was a foreign worker so they couldnt say much about it. Kalau Malaysian, mau aku kena maki dah! haha..

Oh I also got to inject patients at their gluteal part (painkiller/antihistamine). It was easy but I've never done it before. tsktsktsk.

Talking about the patient, goshhh I can type a whole 3500 words of essay about it!
Based on my observation for 5 days, 70% came due to diarrhoea, 20% URTI/headache/fever, 5% body ache, 5% low back ache.
And out of 70% who has diarrhoea,40% of them came for MC! zzzzzzz.
And since the clinic is a panel clinic for so many factories and companies, hence most of the patients are from there. So you know why they want MC lah kan..

oh-oh..before I forgot, this is the same clinic I did my GP posting in semester 4 last time but this time it has been relocated to a new site and it is much much bigger, tidier and brighter like literally. And thank god that most of the staffs are the old ones and they still remember me. The new ones are also friendly so I dont feel alienated somehow.

As for the doctor, I've attached to 2 different doctors, A & B. Both of them are way-way-wayyyyy different from each other. A is more convincing in treating patient and he entertain them very well. He's also quite strict in patient who came just for MC.
B on the other hand, doesnt really take proper history. I'm pretty sure he enjoys his work but seeing how he handle the patient, hmmmm, I'm not convince with that. I prefer A more than B in terms of that. But B is more casual and I dont feel stress when attached to him. Maybe because A is the owner of the clinic and hence he is so strict in so many ways that me feel intimidated by it.

Well anyways, having your own clinic has its pros and cons.
You need to be smart like A where he opens his clinic near the industrial area so all the factories and companies nearby will make him as their panel clinic. Then he is also attached with FOMEMA and hence all the foreign workers from the factories/companies will have to go to him for medical check up. And since FOMEMA needs X-ray, A has prepared X-ray facilities in the clinic. Very smart right!

Besides X-ray, he also has audiometry test, lab for blood test/urine test, lung function test and a pharmacy.

This is what we call easy money! Somehow, deep down inside me, I think becoming a GP is not a bad idea. People think that ohhh GP tu kerja senang makan gaji buta je...otak tak berkembang...blablabla
No, you're wrong!

People will come to you first before they go to hospital to seek treatment. So, you'll be the first one to examine and diagnose them. In this case, you need to be smart and not to make wrong diagnosis and jeopardise the patient's life. If you cannot treat him, then only you refer him to the hospital. As easy as that.

so..anyone wanna join venture with me in the future? :p

masa untuk meroyan

2011-09-21T23:41:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

bitch mode:ON

here's the thing. I've agreed to become one of the committee member for an event in my uni. at first,everything was ok.not perfect but ok. As in everything that we planned seemed to be falling into places. fine with that.

Then suddenly at a very last minute, the leader change the plan. As in the plan which is under me and my other 2 friends. Ok lemme tell you here, the three of us were assigned to handle the food. Ok, I'm totally fine with that. Just the 3 of us right.

Then on one fine day, the leader wanted to have a meeting and while waiting for the others to come, I asked him to discuss the food with me. Why bother waiting for them if you wanna discuss about my part right. Then he said no. Everyone must be there. I could have sensed things gonna be haywire after this but I just shut my mouth and obeyed whatever things he said.
During the meeting, we've decided to have this,this and that. My 2 friends and I have agreed that we just take A as they can provide everything for us so it'll be a lot easier for us. No nuisance job or whatsoever. Ok,I'm happy with that and so are they.
Plus it is our job to find the right one and decide which one is the best.no? Why wanna involve so many people in this thing. Not that I'm selfish and wanted to do all things by myself but seriously, if you want everyone to be involve, might as well I put up a survey on Facebook asking all of the IMU people what menu they want on the event itself!!!!!

On another day which is 4 days before the event, the leader decided to CHANGE the thing. He decided to take B. 4 effing days before event!!!! ok some of you might think that oh well,its 4 days before the event and not 1 day before..
but its the festive season forgodsake! most of the caterers out there are fully booked! and no one likes last minute order. You should put your order like 1 week before the event!
And to me, I LOATHE last minute changing of plan. If its about something small like a dinner for 3-4 people, then its ok. I'm fine with it. But this is huge ok. You cannot simply change the plan according to your SATISFACTION. And just because you're the leader, You have no right to order us around doing the things. If YOU change the plan at the very last minute, THEN YOU should have handle it all by yourself! I HATE DOING SILLY IRRITATING STUFF LIKE THIS! *pulls hair*

NOT THAT I DONT WANNA DO my part but I've already set my mind that we're going to have this and this and so the event will be like this and this. buttttttttttt, the minute you changed it, there goes my perfect plan up there. kapooooffff!
There are gonna be lots of dirty jobs tomorrow and might as well I just wore my tshirt and pants rather than kebaya with pario. I initially planned to wear saree but to think again, nahhhh.pants it is!

The event will be held tomorrow but we still dont have all the utensil needed and I'm the one who needs to rush to Tesco tomorrow after GP to get all those things.
I dont mind buying things but pls pls pls dont ask me to do last minute work ok.
What happen if tomorrow, the things are running out of stock??? zzzzzz.
And by the way, IT IS NOT UNDER our job description to get those things. But the person in charge and the leader seems to ignore about it and hence the 3 of us need to sort things out it involve food. If there are no plates and cup, then how are the students going to eat the meal???

I dont have OCD where I need everything to be perfect but well at least the plan should have been perfect since last week and no alteration needs to be done after that. All we need to do then is to get our job done. But now I have to add another job on top of the stuff that I'm going to handle. I can do multitasking but not on something that I DISAGREE and somewhat FORCED TO DO and LAST MINUTE DECISION!!!!

I really hope tomorrow's event will not be a disaster. I can be mean by cursing the event so that it will turn out to be horrendous and the leader will be the one who to be blamed *insert evil smile* but nahhhhhh, I'm still kind at heart. *flips hair*

Well, In future, I seriously honestly do not want to work under you anymore. I've had enough with all this crap. I was happy when you asked me to handle the thing cause I love to do this kind of thing and I thought you can be an awesome leader so why not right.
Boy I was wrong......

If you happen to read this (which I doubt it unless someone show it to him which I dont need you to do it), take all my words as a lesson for u in future. You can be a good leader provided you know how to be one. I'm not saying that you should come to me to get advice but please evaluate yourself first. If you wanna do something big, then you should know how to handle it properly. I thought you have so many experiences from bukit jalil,no?

Some of you will think that I cant be a follower and I just know how to whine/complaint and I'm a bitch..

oh well, you dont know me better.
enough said. *blows nails*

2011-09-11T18:54:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

Before I proceed with my rantings, here I wanna thanks everyone who came yesterday!
And I'm super duper sorry for any inadequacy okay. The preparation was done at a very last minute as at first my mom wanted to hire caterer but due to some unseen circumstances, she cancelled the plan and wanted to cook for the crowd. :O
And hence, the not so well prepared open house. *sighhh*

Anyways, I do hope everyone enjoyed the meals especially the soto ayam which I spent 2 friggin hours to "carik" the chicken plus 1 hour of gentel-ing the pergedil. Trust me, at that time I really wished I had more sisters to help around because honestly my brothers are super lazy and cannot be relied on. Cakap je pandai,buat kerja tak nak! *insert annoying face*

THANK YOU Su and Shat, Luqman, C2/10 and Betty especially yang datang sorang-sorang dari jaoh for coming. :)

Ok now comes to the emo-emo part.

The PMS has kicked in and yes I'm aware of that but at times like this, even a small thing seems to be hurtful and dont blame me if I say that everything is so deja vu!

gahhhhhhhhhhh~

I wished that I can turn back time and plan my life PROPERLY! In a sense to not get involve in certain-certain things and focus on whats more important in life.
I think I've said about this gazillion of times, so pardon me dear reader.
Hareez, u can stop reading like pronto!

Oh ye tiba-tiba teringat...

I've sort of abandoned my childhood friends ever since I went into boarding school
I APOLOGISE for that. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I was stupid and dumb and very ignorant back then. Most of us live in the same area and yet I did not bother to spent time with them *cries blood* I'm deeply sorry for that. I honestly do not realized that until now. When everyone still has their childhood best friend, but I lost mine ages ago. So now I'm trying to mend every single pieces back together and I hope you guys can forgive me.

*omg emo giler haku ni*
T.T

Fammed

2011-09-07T22:02:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

So today is the third day in Semester 8 and as you can see from my sidebar, I'm currently in Family Medicine posting. Posting which requires us to go to Klinik Kesihatan to clerk patient and learn about the primary health care available in the clinic. The setting is totally different from the hospital's. Having said that, it means I'm gonna be away from the hospital for a month YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Not that I hate hospital but I just need a break from ward work and so on. (ppffffttt like you've ever done something massive during ward work la kan. haha)

But then, I think I've told you before, posting in KK is not fun at all as we have TO BEGGED each and every patient to follow us upstairs into the room which is allocated for us and to let the patient being examined in front of a group of sleepy-couldnt care less medical student! Not all la.some of us are very enthusiastic that he or she answers all questions bombarded by the lecturer furiously. Another thing is that the lecturer will tend to drag one patient from a 10 minutes consultation session to an hour. Sometimes more than that by asking unnecessary questions! Like what we had on the first day. My friend clerked a school boy who apparently had stomach ache (Acute gastroenteritis - AGE). Or maybe the boy wanted an MC letter (well who deosnt?) because it was the first day of back to school after 1 week of Raya holiday plus he is a form 4 student which is a honeymoon year for all of us kan! hehe. Soooo, after asking him questions and we agreed that he had AGE, suddenly the lecturer came up with non-sensical questions (acronym:HEADS) on the hostel environment, academic performance, any drugs usage, smoking?, SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP?, any girlfriend????! and are you DEPRESSED?

LIKE! hellllo I know those are important questions but seriously, stomach ache due to girlfriend? and whether he is depressed or not? pfffttt we just celebrated Raya last week and how can you be depressed over Raya that can lead you to have stomach ache?
I can see through the guy's face that he thinks that WE ARE A BUNCH OF CRAZY MEDICAL PEOPLE! HAHA! and guess what? at the end, the lecturer did not gave him MC letter and the boy seemed to be please about it. Maybe he doesnt want to stay in the room anymore longer so he settled with whatever the doctor gave him. LOL!

buttttttttttt... in real life ladies and gentleman, In real Klinik kesihatan situation (based in my observations from the medical officer working there), a handful will take time to evaluate you PROPERLY and most of them will straightaway give you MC letter without trying to find the reason why you came to the clinic. Not that they did not ask any question, they asked and they know who is sick and who pretended to be sick and wants MC letter. And that is why most of them just straightaway gave MC without having the patient to begged him for it. There are long queue of patients waiting anxiously outside of the room and the doctor couldnt afford to spent more than 10 minutes per patient and that is why things like this happened. Have you ever experienced waiting to be seen by the Dr in KK? oh you should have at least tried once!

Nevertheless, I respect the handful of people who took an effort to clerk patient properly, attend each and every patient with a smile on their faces and write every details and prescription nicely. This simple 3 things are hardly seen nowadays in the KK but yeah, we couldnt put the blame on the doctors entirely but they should know what to do and how to act in front of the public. I really do hope that I'm gonna be a not only competent but also a cheerful doctor in future insyaAllah. amin!

Wait a minute, I wasnt suppose to write all of the above today! geeshhh.

Maybe the writer-persona has kicked in that I feel like posting more than 1 entries tonight! oh well, lets keep it for tomorrow shall we?

till then......
good night all!

p/s: The PMS too has kicked in. ughhhhhhhhhhhh! No wonder I feel down in the dumps lately. :(

Raya 2011

2011-08-31T00:12:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslims readers out there. Ampun maaf if any of my writings in here made you feel uncomfortable or in other words TERASA! haha

All of them are sincerely from the bottom of my heart so no hard feelings okay :)

hehehehehehehehe :p

Sooooooooooooooo...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

me and my sister on the first day of Raya

us on the second day of Raya

I found a clavicle bone near my late granddad's residing place. Its a friggin clavicle yaw!!

can anyone tell me whether this is the left or right clavicle?

Nadhira - Tear Us Apart Feat. Ron E Jones (Official Music Video)

2011-08-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

I've been listening to this song on the radio but didnt get to catch the title or the artist singing it.
So just now I browsed through Hitz.fm website and found it! enjoyyyyy~

Friends with benefits

2011-08-28T17:47:00.007+08:00

hey boo..

I utterly forgot how smexy Justin Timberlake is!
I was virtually drooling while watching the Friends with Benefits movie. And yeah, he make a great couple with Mila Kunis in it.

Oh gawddddddddddd! tgk di kala bulan Ramadhan. tettttttttttttttt! *slaps my face really hard*

Its a great movie to watch especially if you have friends issues (friends in different gender). But then this movie practically saying that guy and girl couldnt be in a non-emotionally-related liaison. oh cut the crap off cause I still do believe that a girl can get connected to a guy without involving their feelings. Like totally a friend-friend thing if you get what I mean. It is not easy as I've seen many of my friends who get hooked up with our guy friend but then you can control yourself unless if you want to have something more than just a friend. That my friend is uncontrollable as you already set your mind about it and nothing can ever stop it even your goddamn self. Courage is all you need to be casual in any friendship with a different gender. Why am I making such statement? cause I individually think that a guy made a best bestfriend for a girl. Cause they dont have boyfriend issues which I think annoying when you get to the same shitty point for gazillions of times. Oh please he doesnt like you anymore, so move on!. Guys also can make a really good secret-keeper. I dont trust most of my girlfriends including my sister and hence my problems are save within me, myself and I. Thirdly, guy will not get too emotional over things you said although it really gonna hurt him like nobody cares but then it will just go into the right ear and come out from the left one. Whereas girl tends to hold grudges and I admit that I do that some time :p. Girls also can become super emotional plus when they are having the time of the month. I too can get too emotional during this period of time. But come to think of it, most of my guy friends including my brothers are emotional too. Dangggg minus 1 point here. They can get over emotional supersedes the girls! Fifthly, guys understand us the girls better than any other girls out there. When you're feeling down or sad or just not at the right state of mind, go find yourself a guy. NEVER go to a girl and spill everything out cause half of them will actually feel glad that you're having that kinda problem while the other half will just pray that you will get hit by a lorry for telling her all those unnecessary stuffs that will messed up her mind. oh there's also another half who will pretend to listen to every single thing of it but actually she just stares at you for the whole time while playing *Umbrella by Rihanna at the back of her mind. Guys ladies and gentleman, will not try to solve your problems but instead they will cheer you up and crack some really funny jokes about it. And you on the other hand seem to have no problem and laugh out loud on their jokes about your problem. True story here.
Nonetheless, if I feel down during the time of the month, I WILL NOT seek my friend (be it girls or guys) to ease my emotions. Simply because it is just your hormones jumping up and down and no matter who you seek out for help, the feelings are gonna be the same. No matter how many plans they told you to do, be it Plan A, B, C and so on and so on, at the end of the day, TRUST ME you will not follow any of the plans given.

Overall, I think you get what I mean, no? Or was I just wasting my 5 minutes of my life by typing the whole paragraph up there? come onnnnnnnnnn!
hahahahha!

But then again the movie is awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee IF you're into some romance comedy + some chick flick-ish style of movie.
But please please watch it after berbuka or better after Raya or else I will get some minus points from you guys too. huehuehue

p/s: god I feel good after typing this entry. Its been awhile since I last ranting about some real shit. Not just about myself yadayada.

Raya preparation 2

2011-08-28T14:06:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

So this time I'm gonna spill about my EPIC FAIL attempt on making choc chip cookies.

And as usual, it is all my fault. haiyaarkkk

tu la..buat kuih setahun sekali,ada hati nak bake sampai 2 adunan sekali gus. -.-''

It all begins when I went to buy the ingredients needed for the cookies.
I purposedly change castor sugar to normal sugar as I think it is still sugar so why wanna waste money buying another type of sugar when you have a normal sugar at home.
ok dalam erti kata lain, kedekot! hahaha!
Plus when I asked my friend and my SIL, both of them said boleh je guna so lagi lah menyebabkan ketidakpembelian gula castor itu!

And that night, Deni boy meragam so SIL couldnt assist me in the kitchen. Me trying to be the masterchef that night, proceed with the cookies anyway.
Dah la tak reti nk guna mixer then the batter wasnt completely mixed up as the sugar was still very prominent in it. SO I ran to my SIL showing her the batter, and she said to continue mixed it but NOT FOR TOO LONG. oh I missed the "caps lock" part and hence I mixed it for another 45 minutes! my goodness the batter became super kembang @#@$%!$*^&! SO my sis and I tried to alter the cookies but we still couldnt save it up until the end. sobs!
The cookies are not crunchy as it suppose to be and the texture is a bit odd. But then my brother did not complained much about it. surprisingly. LOL
Oh satu lagi kejadian... The first batch that went into the oven got burned up! like literally. haiyark... and guess what, we spent up until 4.30 am just to finished baking the epic fail cookies. Such a waste of time kan. *goes to one corner and criessss*

I FAILED MISERABLY IN KITCHEN! :(
maybe kitchen is not my work place kot. I couldnt cook moreover bake. I love making dessert or baking cookies but they always turned up to be distorted and weird I should say. I couldnt even make a nice cup/mug of milo or tea or even sunquick (Aten and Mija can judge me from this one ;p)! *insert sad face*
And hence mama will stock up Milo 3 in 1 packets for me every month. hehe.

Well on the other hand, last night I make honey cornflakes cookies which is easy peasy. *blows nails*
And the cookies turned out to be what it supposed to be *hoooorayyy*
Nothing much for me to elaborate on this one as this is so easy and theres nothing much for me to talk about. Its just honey,butter,sugar and cornflakes! Easy aint it?
Like my mother used to mock me, "orang buta pon boleh buat"
ye mama..ye!

Anyhow, Raya is in 2 days time. Excited?? hell yeah! I wanna stuffed myself with good food as I wanna gain more weight. Truth to be told, I dont feel good with the current weight. It feels as if I'm flying sometimes instead of walking. Melampau much?
Oh rendang, lemang, kuah kacang with nasi impit, kuah lodeh and all sorts of cooooookiessss...COME TO MAMA! :D

Raya preparation 1

2011-08-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

I managed to get my hands on 1 baju kurung today. yippie yay yay!
Why 1. why not 2 or 3 or whatever number it is as long as more than 1???

Simply because, I'll only celebrate Raya at my own friggin house. Yes, SEREMBAN!
(oh seremban people, you are invited to come to my house on the 1st day itself :) )

boring? tell me about it. It has been like this since the year my late grandma got stroke which was in 2006. But then most of my aunties and uncles live in Seremban too, hence my siblings and I will just go around from one house to another just to kill our time.

So yeah, basically my Raya sucks but I tried my best every year to make it joyful (well at least for the 1st day of Raya).

Back to my baju kurung, this year, I bought plain white colour baju with some sulams and maniks on it. I dont fancy the colourful, painted baju kurung anymore. I think those are so last season and Plain is so in now! :)

I've been eye-ing one kaftans from Fashionvalet.net but I dont think I can pull it off with it. Baju kurung is all rounder, suitable for every single person but Kaftans is different. Not everyone will looked good in it. You need to have the right figure to come out stunningly in Kaftans. Plus when I asked about Kaftans from the promoter just now, she just laughed and said,"size untuk adik tak ada lah. paling kecil pon 38. adik ni kurus sangat"

T.T

I seriously need to gain more weight after this. And the kakak promoter is the 128430626720th people telling me the same thing! -.-''''

2011-08-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

Everything seems to be like deja-vu

only that the characters in it are unlike before. in some ways.

Well I guess its a sign...maybe yes, maybe not..

Or maybe I should just ignore it and continue with what Ive been doing all this while
Or maybe I should create a distance between us?
Or maybe I should just ignore....wait isnt this the same as the first one?

so yeah, that would be my decision from now on.

But in case if I change my plan here in future, please dont blame me for it.

At least the first experience has taught me a lot in so many ways. So this time, please act as an adult ok bee.
Experience is definitely the best goddamn teacher :)

2011-08-19T11:56:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

Well the other day, my brother blurted out something from here. It seems like he has been reading my blog since I dont know when.
This is not a good sign. I might be considering to privatize my blog now. But macam tak cool la private2 ni. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

changing url? that means Im gonna have to start a new blog which is not a good idea at all. I've been blogging for more than 3 years and I dont wanna start a new one oh please.

So boy, sila berambus dari sini ok. There's nothing interesting for you to read from here. -.-'''''

Life's been great since Wednesday. No more waking up with palpitations or mind full of list to do for the next 24 hours. No more waking up to face the books+notes+slides+what not. LIFE'S DEFINITELY GREAT NOW!
alhamdulillah.....

Raya is less than 2 weeks time and I still dont have my Raya attire yet. Tak rasa nak Raya I dont know why. Maybe because for the past 2 weeks I've been busy with EOS kot. But now that everything is over, I shall gain back my Raya mood.

So first thing to do is to play all the Raya songs just to get in the mood.
Next, is to hunt down my baju kurung and shoes and handbag. ok now I'm totally into RAYA! SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPING SPREE laa wehhhhhh!

weeeehuuu. :DDDDD

to my 0105 girls, joms join buka puasa at Sunway Piramid! Selasa ni. JOMSSSSSSSSS korg!!!!!! RSVP latest by Tuesday morning k!

GOD IS DEFINITELY GREAT!

2011-08-17T12:17:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

I PASSED MY EOS 7!!!! wooohoooooooooooooooooooo!

so now..hello Semester 8 :))))

Thank you Allah for making my doas and wishes and dreams come true! Alhamdulillah.
The feelings are indescribable. lega sangat2!

and millions of thanks to those who prayed along with me. I truly truly appreciate it. from the bottom of my heart <3, THANK YOU!

Well obviously I did not get the distinction (memang tunggu bulan jatuh ke riba baru dapat kot! haha) but then I PASSED ok!

LEGAAAAAAAAAAAAA GLR!

been having palpitation for the past 12 hours and now its all over. fuhhhhhhhhhhh~!

But lesson learned! never ever study at the very last minute pls!

Come EOS 9, I must be well prepared to face it.

And grats to my fellow C2/10 too! we made it this time! woohooo!

see you guys in semester 8! enjoy our short holiday before the madness of semester 8 begin. :)

2011-08-16T21:22:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

So today marks the end of my EOS paper.
Result will be out tomorrow. YES! u read that right... TOMORROW!

I'm super scared now..cuak..cuakk....cuakkkkkkkk gile!

Please-please-please pray for my result anda2 semua.. I appreciate every single doa from you guys. Only Allah can repay ur doa :)

Overall, the exam papers were okay in some part and not okay in some parts.

huuuuuuuuuuu!

super cuak now..

will update more tomorrow k.

WISH ME ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD PEOPLE!

thx!

EOS 7!

2011-07-24T20:19:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

So I'm unofficially done with Semester 7!

why unofficially? because I have yet to face the gigantic EOS 7 examination which will start on the 8th of August 2011.

Yes, di kala bulan puasa! I hope I'll be fine as always cause this is the first time I'm facing big exam during fasting month. fuhh~
Bulan Ramadhan is the most anticipated month for Muslims in the world. It is full of keberkatan and hence I hope my exam will also full of keberkatan from Him. InsyaAllah.

As for EOS 7, it will consists of SAQ (short answer question) paper, OSPE, Long OSCE and lastly Short OSCE. fuh~~

Oh bdw, we have to revise all 7 systems as you can see on my sidebar -->

starting with Internal Medicine, Surgery, Family Medicine, Orthopaedics, Psychiatry, Obstetrics and Paediatrics.

fuh! semua Major posting okayhhh. fuh! fuh!

although all of the systems up there will be ask in 1 paper (means no separate paper for each system) but it is harder you know! Cause its like, the questions can be everything under the sun. SO UNPREDICTABLE!
And hence, I have to master in every single thing in 2 weeks time! gahhhhhhhhhhhh!

oh Lord, please ease my journey like you always did for my previous EOS. amin!!!

Last Thursday was my OBA (one best answer) paper for Obstetrics + Paediatrics. I think I did well in that paper compared to Ortho+Psych OBA which I screwed badly!

So yeah, expect less update from me from now till 18th August which marks the official end of Semester 7!

Hope everything will turns out well for me and my friends.amin!

GO! GO! C2/10! :D

uncertainty

2011-07-24T10:48:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

Last Wednesday morning..while I'm rushing to the hospital for my EOP Paeds, I saw one car in front of me (a Kelisa to be exact) who suddenly stop in the middle of the road and reversed .Me being me as usual, cursed at the driver rightaway since I'm in a hurry and this driver can simply stop and do whatever he wanted to. ughhhh.

Then after I passed by the car, I wanted to give the angry look (like what I use to do to all the drivers out there who drove like they just earned their license an hour ago!) to the driver and to my........

SURPRISE SURPRISE!!!!

The driver was Mr. U smile I smile! gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Teros tak jadi bagi the look and instead I press on the accelerator harder! hahaha!

And If I'm not mistaken.. If my visions were clear and my brain translated it correctly, I think I saw a girl next to him in the car... T.T

yeah..so thats it. I have my own policy so yeah. Bye Bye Mr U smile I smile!
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But then again, come to think of it..My vision could be wrong or my brain was overloaded with Paeds thingy that it interpreted my visions wrongly that day.
Plus I've never seen him with any female docs/nurses in the hospital before! Its always him alone or with his guy friend.
*oh mensedapkan hati! LOL*

hurmmmmmmmm......

anyways, EOS is in 2 weeks time.. Pray for me everyone. I need to pass this. amin!!!!!

p/s: bdw, My EOP Paeds went well.Alhamdulillah. Thank you God for that.

Beribu sesalan - 3 Suara - Ning Baizura, Shila Amzah, Jaclyn Victor liri...

2011-07-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

ok..segmen lagu lagi. nak update blog but super malas. yang rajin ape entah. menelaah pon tidak.haihhhhhh! *lempang sket!*

anyways, as usual, all songs posted here are not related to me AT ALL!

I just love the melody. Then bila baca lirik, I was like.....zzzz.....sedih betol!

To my friends who have been hurt by someone that you truly loved before, keep moving on! Its not the end of the world yet. you guys know who you are..

eceh cakap pandai aku ni..padahal dah 22 tahun memvirgin! ok that's a new word that you can add into your dictionary ok?

k..bye!

2011-07-13T21:08:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

lame dah takde u smile, i smile ni.

haish..

haish...

Ruth Sahanaya - Keliru

2011-07-08T09:42:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

Its Friday and here I am sharing my lagu wajib karaoke to u guys!

Enjoy! :DDDD

:)

♥ You Got Me ♥

2011-07-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

*Cheesy mode on*

This song is especially dedicated for you-know-who..awhhhhh!
pardon the sudden cheesy-ness mode in the middle of the night. Guess Paeds failed to make me concentrate 100%. haihs.

*cheesy mode off*
BACK TO BOOKS!

back at becoming the youngest ^^

2011-07-03T20:31:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

Lil Fayadh has gone back to my SIL's house in Bahau. My SIL will be having her confinement period there and both of them will stay there until Raya.
Which means the next time I'll be seeing Lil Fayadh is in another 2 months time! whoahhhh lama gila tu and for sure the face berubah dah time tu.

Truth to be told, I kinda miss him already. Though I've been ranting a lot about not being the youngest yada yada, but turns out Lil Fayadh attracts me more than I could have imagined before. He's soooooo cute and adorable!!
We called him "anak burung" as he is so super small. comellllllll je! ^^

ok yeah I know, babies are all cute and I'm a bit bias here as he is my one and only nephew but everyone does that ok so pffffttttt. :p

Anyways, last night my mom sensed some jealousy from me when she hold and milked Lil Fayadh from the bottle. I did not deny it when she asked me that. Then she told my dad and he replied,"YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY! Fayadh is my grandson but you are my baby"

AWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

YOU'RE DEFINITELY THE BEST DAD IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! :DDDD

hihihihi! *lega hati bila dengar tu..no more feeling insecure!* HAHAHAHAHA!!!

LMFAO - Party Rock Anthem ft. Lauren Bennett, GoonRock

2011-07-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

sumpah dah addicted to this song!
haishhh.

I tried shuffling mcm dalam vid but gahhhhhhhh I was not born to be a dancer!
EPIC FAIL ok.. EPIC FAIL!

anyways, selamat bershuffling to the song :DDD

Day 7 of life

2011-07-02T00:41:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

As you already know, there's a small creature in my house now. And I feel like chewing him like literally!

I admit that I'm a big fan of babies though I suck at playing with them

They are just so adorable! tiny! cuteeeeeeeeee :DDDD!

But the minute they start to cry, that's it. You're no longer cute to me. Not until you finish crying.

ok, I'm a bad aunty yeah yeah.

Oh cant imagine myself breastfeeding my own baby in the future! oh gawdddddddd....
Cause my lil fayadh is so aggresive that both of my SIL's nipples are injured. ishh-ishh-ishh. This tiny creature doesnt even have teeth to begin with but he is able to cause insult to the most sensitive part of the body. ganas ohhhh!

And because of that, there's boobs talk in the house now. Everyone is talking about it and it feels weird and awkward and weird and awkward =z
Even my other brother is talking about that too! oh gawddd.. And every time they talked about this in front of me, I would just grinned, nodded my head without any verbal response or paying attention to lil fayadh and ignoring what they just said! IT IS SUPER WEIRD OK! not that I dont do boobs talk (geeeeshhh, I'm not that "saint" ok!) But BOOBS TALK with FAMILY MEMBERS is UBER WEIRD OK! to me at least. BOOBS TALK with ur girlfriends are perfectly normal.

Anyways, Sunday will be the last day we'll be seeing him. The next time will be on Hari Raya which is one and half months more. Guess I'll be missing him then.tsktsktsk.

Well-well, You better be a good and pretty boy if you want my love ok! :p

p/s: I saw him this morning at the usual place, the elevator! haha. But since Bells was with me that time, so I did not say Hi to him. But then he noticed me and smileeeeeeeeeee! And that definitely made my day! Although after that during CP with WSL, she got angry with us but it did not bother me at all. Cause someone just made my day :)

Fayyadh Danish

2011-06-25T22:29:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

Today marks the new addition to the Fadzlee's

My sister in law gave birth to a baby boy at 11 am this morning. She delivered at exactly 41 weeks of gestation which means post-date la.

So now, I'm officially an auntie (ok seriously dah 4 kali aku type ayat yg sama but in different sites.LOL)
And I'm not the youngest in the family anymore. SOBS!
sumpahhhhhh sedihhh but then sampai bila lah kan nk jadi the youngest. I have to pass the title down someday which apparently is today!

Soooooooooooo..Grats to my brother for his new baby boy. and Welcome to the family baby dearie. I cant promise to be a good auntie to you but am sure can be a hot one! :p hahahaahahaha!

p/s: the title up there is the name for the baby which means....ermmm...google je la eh.

Kelly Clarkson: The Trouble With Love Is - Official Music Video

2011-06-22T19:35:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

another video for you guys. fav song ni!

and especially dedicated to Ms. A-an

enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyy~!

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Colbie Caillat - I Do

2011-06-20T19:41:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

another song to share here..

nah aan, lagu omputih! hahaha.

It's always been about me myself and I
If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy to say that our love wouldn't last
That was the only way I knew to that you

You make we wanna say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I can live without it, I can let it go
Ooh, I did, I get myself into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Tell me is it only me
Do you feel the same?
You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games
I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down
You can trust and never feel it now
Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Wooh Can I get myself into
You make we wanna say

Me a family, a house a family
Ooh, can we be a family?
And when I'm old and sit next to you.

And when we remember when we said
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Just look at what we got ourselves into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,
Love you

u make me wanna say I do! .......love you!

awwhhhhhhhh.

p/s: i'm not in love or whatsoeva ye!

week 3,4,5 of obs

2011-06-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

hahahaha the last update was on week 2!

guess what! last Friday marks the end of my Obs posting JYEAHHH!

super happy cause its the end of the most torturing posting so far. :D

Had my EOP with Dr. Sheila last Tuesday. And she asked me on the dosage for PPROM and Dexamethasone given to fetus. zzzzzzzzzzzzz!
But I nailed the triple antibiotics dengan jayanya. so yeah!
I got PROM case and it was ok I guess.

End my posting with an A for my final summary after 2 C+ in week 3 & 4. alhamdulillah.
Sampai DS pon wonder why is my summary (week 3&4) have gone so bad since the first 2 weeks I got A-.

AHHHHH tak kesah laaaaaa! DAH HABIS DAH! :DDDD

Random points on Obs:
i) It is very straightforward. The disease in pregnancy are almost the same each time except for some rare patients la who got epilepsy la..heart disease la..
Otherwise, most of them are anemia, GDM, PIH or pre-eclampsia
ii) Palpating a gravid uterus IS NOT EASY! I spent the first 2 weeks trying to figure out the "what the hell did I palpate just now!"
iii) Labour room is a fun place to be unless you got scolded from the some bitchy nurse/doctor
iv) Spontaneous Vaginal Delivery is a painful process! Guys, if u think circumcision is the most horrifying thing,THINK AGAIN! like really THINK DEEPLY AGAIN AND AGAIN!
v) DS is not bad afterall. He is actually the best examiner for exam. boleh dapat A dengan amat senang sekali. But then, I got Sheila. :(
vi) I've seen more than enough of SVD! seriously banyak. and only 1 LSCS.

I ended my Obs posting with mixed feelings. I dont really know whether I like this field or not. Sometimes, I think it is interesting, and sometimes I think its a painful path for me to go further in it.

hurm....

So as you can see at the sidebar, the last posting of the semester will be Paediatrics! haih..budak kecik..so not my cup of tea..
But I really do hope that I can go through the last hurdle smoothly..

And 1 month to go before EOS 7! *nervous mode activated*
aiyaiyaiyai..

That's it for now. adios!

KISAH HATI - Alyah dengan lirik | with lyric on screen

2011-06-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

listen to the words. beautifully written by the lyricist.

am i dumb or whatttt

2011-06-17T21:45:00.006+08:00

hey boo..

saw him today..on the way back to IMU.. no, actually I saw him going down the stairs in the hospital and it just so happen that he went to IMU's cafe after that.
I dont know why, but I ajak-ed my friends to eat at the cafe at the same time. Its like, u have a feeling that he'll be there though u're not 100% sure of it.

So, off we went to the cafe and ta-dahhhh..HE'S THERE!

I was smiling widely inside of me! not on the outside kang confirm kena kutuk sampai grad ni! hahahahaha

But then I was freakingly dumb that I did not look at him at all! :(((((
I pretended as if he was not there. As if nothing happen. OH AM GEE!
What the hell was wrong with me?!?!?!

I've been dying to see him, and I just let the golden chance go just like that!
zomggggggggg!

can someone give me a big tight fat slap across my face..PLEASE?!

:((((((((((((

and now.. menyesal tak sudah. haih!

if only I could turn back the time :((((((((

2nd week of obs

2011-05-29T00:17:00.007+08:00

hey boo..

The second week has ended and next week marks the 3rd week in Obstetrics posting..Gosh! time has travel via bullet train ke hape ni! it seems like yesterday that I feel depress for getting DS as my mentor! And life is getting busier and busier each day that I feel exhausted the minute I step into the house. All I can think of is zzzzzzzzzzzz. yes, tidur! super tired. ini baru medical student! hahahaha! All this while, my life in IMU is you-know-how...hehehe

Oh-Oh..DS is not that bad..SEE I'VE SAID IT!
IMU readers out there..mark my words ok.. At least I've said it once in here.

He is not bad at all. Last Thursday, he wanted to see us all in his room. So I was like,"abis la..mati la kene bomb lagi ni"
But turned out, he was making fool of our summaries and believe it or not, I laughed so hard that there were tears in my eyes! and I sat perfectly in front of him all the time! But I couldnt help it, so gelakkkk je la. He is damn good at making jokes without making it so offensive. Though actually the message is to perli us all! hahahaha!
not bad huh...not bad!

And on top of it, all my hard works on my summaries have paid off (cracking head for learning issues, looking out for relevant journals, citation for the journals, and reflection!).he gave me good grade for my week 1 and week 2 summaries. Alhamdulillah.

Anyways, speaking of Obs here, I spent my week 2 in Hospital Kuala Pilah and all I can say is I WANNA DO MY HOUSEMANSHIP IN THAT HOSPITAL!!!! simply because:
a) The staffs are super duper nice! never seen that kinda staffs in HTJ. sorry to say
b) The patients are quite a lot so you still can learn something there although it is not a big hospital
c) I like the way they handle things there (ie: the pass over report in the morning where I doubt there is any in HTJ)
d) The specialist are also nice and helpful. I'm sure I can gain a lot from here
e) The hospital is extremely comfortable for a government hospital. Wayyy-wayyy better than HTJ.
f) It is still in Negeri Sembilan and it is just about 30-40 mins drive from my house.hehehe ^^

But then seeing the doctors do their work in the ward/clinic, I doubt myself very much that am I capable to be like them one day??? hmph......

Oh yeah, Obstetrics is actually fun. I never had a single thought of how fun Obs can be but now I personally feels that Obs is fun!I had fun watching cute babies fresh from the vagina! hehehe. But seriously, I adore babies so much! not kiddos eh, but babies! they're just purely adorable!
I've also seen lotsa-lotsa SVD (Spontaneous Vaginal delivery) with or without episiotomy.
But I'm yet to see any LSCS done patient. Maybe during my 4th week kot when I'm posted to the labour room and maternal OT. Watching the mother suffering from contraction pain makes me realise that goshh, conceiving a child is not easy! you really-really need to prepare mentally and physically for that!

And to all Guys out there, appreciate your mother/wife/sister for all the suffers that they had/will go through during labour. Your job is darn easy which is providing the sperms via the most pleasurable activity in the world but then the ladies have to take over on EVERYTHING! EVERY SINGLE DARN THING. From the morning sickness, any complications during pregnancy, the painful labour, the after effect from labour (episiotomy or any tears repair or LSCS), the confinement period where they have to take of themselves PLUS the baby.

Gosh..being woman is not easy. A mother to be precise.
And honestly, it makes me think twice to have a baby in future. I will only conceive when I'm extremely READY.

Seeeeee...I'm talking about Obs here...
But nahhh, I still havent decide thoroughly as to what I'm gonna specialize in the future.
I know that by right, you should have at least have an idea but then learning it theoretically and doing it practically is DIFFERENT! so, I need to go through EVERYTHING and then only I can decide whats best for me. And yes, I need to go through my housemanship years first before deciding to drown myself into one of the big branches of medicine.

Thats it for this time. See you again the my 3rd week of obs.
Toodles..nite nite and sweet dreams :)

p/s: pardon me if you feel disturb with the pictures above. But hey, its one of the learning process no? :)

pp/s: Credits to google for the piccas! :)

1st week of obs

2011-05-20T20:45:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

Well-well, I'm super glad that the week is OVER! the first week of my obstetric posting is officially over!!!! jyeahhhh! :D
Cant describe my feelings right now but you know how it feels like! *insert bunga api terbang-terbang*

So, I've sent in all 3 reports to my mentor this afternoon (3pm) via his email. Guess what? I honestly never had this super efficient mentor before, he replied my email at 7 pm stating that he already gone through all my reports and gave some comments about it!

EFFICIENT GLE HOKAYYYYY!!!!!!

I was about to re-send my case summary as I realised that I had some mistakes in it tapi tak sempat dah. And turns out, I think (I think la since he didnt mention anything about it) he did not regard it as a mistake! :))))

Oh by the way, we had CSU session with him today, and we had to stand for the whole 2 freaking hours!!!!! I was already tired by the first 1 hour and couldnt concentrate properly after that. He is good at teaching as he see the process as a whole like From A-Z and the benefits,indications and contraindications of it. And I myself realised that there are lots more for me to learn in obs.
He did mention that when you see a delivery, its not just about how the mother deliver the baby (SVD or LSCS) but why? how long does she takes? since when does she had the contractions? any augmentation? any risk factor? primate or multip? how is the presentation of the baby?

goshhhhhhh! never thought of that before. I swear! all I know since Monday, when I enter the labour room, I must watch 1 delivery at least and to know the basic conditions on the mother and baby.like very BASIC! >.<''''

LEMPANG SY PLEASE!!!!!!

I NEED TO LEARN MORE! and hence the weekend should be utilise fully for learning process.
*gulps*
can I???? LOLS!

but anyhow, dear weekend, can u stay longer than the usual? pwetty please!!!! I need to prepare mentally and physically for the 2nd week! But this time, my subgroup will be posted to Hospital Kuala Pilah for 1 week. hope everything will go as planned. amin!

thats all for now.toodles ^^

its OBS baybehh!

2011-05-17T14:38:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

Just so u know, especially those who are following me on twitter, I got Dato S as my mentor for obs! goshhhhh! my nightmares has just begin!

No wonder I've been so restless for these past few days..I've been thinking about this for like every day and night. and ta-dahhh, I got him! OH LORD!
What mistakes I did this time??

Yes, everyone keeps on saying, u have the best mentor available..he'll teach you a lot..he's really nice to all his mentees..he is very good at teaching and you'll benefit a lot..and so on and on and on..

But you guys tak rasa weh!!!!!!! I'm always scared of him since day 1!
He's so scaryyyyy! and sarcastic!!!! and what not!

ughhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Seriously, what mistakes have I made till I got him ni!!!!! :(

I havent seen the bright side of getting him yet..So I really do hope that all those words as mentioned above are true! or else I'll feel doomed for the next 5 weeks!

Obs is very-very busy..and why am I blogging today. Well its because today is a holiday la..wesak day! THANK YOU TO THE BUDDHIST OUT THERE. I REALLY NEED THIS ONE DAY OF HOLIDAY! to pull myself up for the 1st week of obs. to make me realise that this is a real business. Forget about how free and easy Ortho and Psych is.. This is Obs man! like the busiest posting ever! where you need to submit your case summary every week! + on call report! And as for me, I have another extra report which is the progression report! ZOMG!

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD I need to submit all 3 reports on every Friday of the same week. Unlike other mentors, where they allow their mentees to submit reports on the following Monday.
Oh-oh then I NEED to look out for JOURNALS not more that 3 years old as a reference for my learning issues! I HATE JOURNALS forgodsake. Yes I know Im a future doctor but like hello! I seriously hate journals! $@#%*&^! andddd I have to make citation for every single damn thing.
:(:(:(

I maybe whining a lot but please be in my shoe and you will know how it feels like.
I've gotten some samples on the reports from the previous group and oh lord, I dont think I'm able to come out with such report. Its gonna take me years to write those thing+reference+citation..BENCI LAAAAAAAAA!

WHY MEEEEEEEEE!!!! WHY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :'(

I'm so stress up right. The reports are haunting me day and night. :(
I cant even study properly just to think of the reports. It may seem small to you but not to me. ughhhhhhhhhh!

On another note, I went to the ward this morning to cover my beds. One of my patient has breech presentation and when I palpate her abdomen, I couldnt find the exact location blablabla. susahnyaaaaaaaa! :'(

Maybe this is because of my NO INTEREST in Obs since day 1 kot.hmph

So now I MUST INSTILL POSITIVE ENERGY, THOUGHTS,IDEAS on every damn things that related to Obs.

You can do this BEESYA!!!!! Believe in yourselfffffffffff!!!!!!

Its hard but if those people can do it, why cant you!

GO GO MOZAC!

2011-05-14T11:56:00.009+08:00

hey boo..

Last weekend (not this weekend) was oh-so-awesome for me! First is because we just ended the sucky-sucky MCQ paper on Ortho+Psych. (i think im gonna fail this one.i swear!). Second is because of the 1 week holiday courtesy of IMU. THANX A LOT IMU!!!!!!!!!!! gile terharu dapat cuti seminggu! :')

So up we went to KL to just celebrate all the things up there. First stop was HUKM to visit Nabila dearie. She was sick that day and we couldnt talk to her. (please-please-please pray for her speedy recovery!!!)
Next is to celebrate my friend's-ex-housemate's-boyfriend's birthday... get it??? hahaha...at Sri Petaling..waaaaaaaa Sri Petaling da majuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! u guys yang dekat B.Jalil are damn lucky now! dah la IMU makin bes, n SP pon makin maju! tsktsktsk..
The next day, we went for movie!!!! Fast 5! which was oh so awesome! GILE AWESOME!
(ok the title of this post masih tiada kena mengena kan..tunggggggggu kayhhh..hehe)
Then we went for shopping and I almost drop my moolah kat Padini! they're having sale! though its just Padini but stilllllllll, I havent gone shopping for quite some time, so Padini pon boleh je! The last time I went shopping was in Melbourne. And the winner of money spending that day jatuh kat me again. -.-''' That night, we went to indulge ourselves in Tutti Frutti. semua org pon 1st time try! hehehe..but the taste memang sedap glr! the froyo is so smooth and nice and sweet! (cause I dont like the original taste,so i took the flavoured ones) and boleh letak topping ikut suka hati was yayyyyyyyyy! *insert happppppppy face*. but too bad, the price was a bit expensive. 100g=RM5.30. hmmmmmmmmmm..
On Sunday, we went to watch Thor which was again fantastic! He is not good looking at all but the moment he goes naked from the belly button upwards, I was like, *jaw-dropped!* gosh his body is to die forrrrr! 6 packs plus the v-line (i dont know the name of it) mmg perghhhhhh..naseb tak puasa ke that day, memang boleh batal! hahahahhaa..ok sounds soooo horny pulak -.-'''

(now it starting to relate with the title up there.hehe)
After Maghrib, off I went to see Ira in Ampang. Then, the 2 of us went straightaway to Naya's. waaaaaaaaa..it has been so long since I last saw them! both of them looked good! stunning perhaps! :D

we spent the whole night catching up with each others and gossiping! hihihi! thats what girls do best. so man out there, do not complaint! cause u guys are the worst gossipers! :p
We went for late night karaoke at RedBox Curve until 3 am. haha gile kan! Ira as always has the beautiful voice while me and Naya were like her back up singer je! hahaha. But i had fun!!!!! sampai dah tak kempunan nak karok now. pshhhh!
We reached Naya's house around 3.30 am and continue talking and talking and talking sampai Subuh! We did not sleep at all. The next day, all 3 of us dah macam zombie! We did not go out pon on Monday. memang tak larattt. But on Monday night we went for dessert at Delicious in Dua Residence, Jalan Tun Razak. That place is beautiful! should go there more often :)

though it is just a short meeting, but i do get so many things from it. Like Naya who has polymyositis since school. I know theres something wrong with her but I dont know what was it back then. (yelah mase tu kan belom masok med school pon kan). Then Ira had lumps removed from her armpit twice but both of it were benign. fuhhh! thank god.

Its not about the disease that I wanna say here but the real life condition that your friends have gone through and you on the other hand are so far pink of health. Be thankful of what God have given to you every single day even if its just a tiny little things but if you look it at as a whole, it actually means the world to you.

Since all 3 of us were in the same class, we talked about our classmates and stupid things we did back then. Beta Sayang Kamu was our class tagline during Panca D'lima (pasar malam by form 5). Form 5 Beta certainly has everything to offer; the smarty pants, the ulat buku, the handsome one!, the perasan handsome!, the beauty queen, the britney's sister from another father and mother, the quiet one, the loud one, the sleepy head, the "escape queen and king", the twin (half of it), the funny guy@joker, the laugh-out-loud girl, the parasite, the teacher's pet, the one who always caught dating by the ketua warden! LOL and lots more!
You know who you are..and which title belongs to you! hehehe

I'm not close to all of my classmates especially the boys but I do still remember each of them. I missed those times with my girlfriends back at school. From the moment I woke up every morning, walked to the academic block, classes, prep class, "waktu riadah yg not so riadah for me! haha", night prep and late night studying@supper@gossiping! gosh! those were precious memories that shall be retain till eternity. :')

Oh Ira is planning for a road trip to Melaka next week. I havent confirm my attendees yet as tomorrow marks my new posting which is Obstetrics. GOSH THAT IS JUST SO SCARYYYYYYY! If its confirm on weekend and I'm not busy then I wanna join them! It would be so much fun! :)

Guess that's it for this time...toodles!

have a fabulous week ahead! :D

The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge!

2011-05-01T19:39:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

29th April marks the most anticipated moment for each and everyone of us around the world!
the world infamous royal couple has tied up the knot! CONGRATULATIONS to Will & Kate!

oh that girl is oh-so-lucky! she doesnt need to kiss a toad/frog to get a prince! all she has to do was enroll in a college and ta-dahhh, a prince appeared right in front of you! :')

I watched the whole wedding process right from where she left the Goring Hotel-westminster abbey-buckingham palace. Thanx to ntv7 for covering it up!
I was so lazy to join my dad watching it cause rolling on the bed and smileeeeeeee all the way was what i did. I dont want to smile to myself in front of dad! that would be weird! kang die ingat anak die ni dah kemaruk nak kahwin! LOLOLS!

Anyways, the whole world has witnessed her simple yet elegant McQueen's wedding dress, flawless self-make up (yes she did her own make up!), stunning smile and yadayada! She's the perfect choice!

Oh have you guys seen Will's ex-es? OH LORD THANK YOU for letting him choose Kate instead of the others! Ok I maybe mean here, but tak lawa laaaaa and Kate does have some royal-ish look although she is a commoner. and that is why she does not own the Princess title! but people can still regard her as a Princess unofficially.

bdw the latest news --> Royal wedding honeymoon delayed for Prince William and Kate Middleton as he returns to work at RAF Search and Rescue base in Anglesey, North Wales.
awwwwwwww..poor Kate! but thats what you have to deal with when you're married to a royalty!

What I like the most during the whole procession is the moment when the exchange vows! The look in their eyes are so genuine and full of love! memang berair mata aku okkkkkk. hahahha over!

and then when they kissed at the balcony..twice! awwwwwwwww! that was just so romantic!

p/s: these 2 are my fav!

they are definitely made for each other!

now....where is my prince again? LOL

2011-04-15T20:51:00.005+08:00

hey boo...

I'm actually at my lowest point of life today. Dont ask me why cause I myself dont have the answer to it.

The toilet has once again became my place to let go off my emotions. There was a poignant feeling in my chest and I couldnt take it anymore. thanx dear toilet bowl, wall, door, tissue paper! LOL
In case you are wondering, it is not due to the previous post. Nope! not at all.

I myself still couldnt find the answer to it. Perhaps its the time of the month and my hormones are currently jumbling upside down.

But then, you know you are not well when you have all the symptoms of the topic that you are now learning. God forbid I dont wanna end up having some mental issues please!
Okay, maybe this is just MSD and I'm the one exaggerating it kan.

So....I'm truly-truly sorry to those who are affected by my mood today. You know who you are. And thanks for asking by the way. But its just that I dont know what to say. Yes, I am snobbish, egoist and stubborn. Its just hard for me to tell these things to people. I'm different in a way that I dont simply talk about my problems to others. I prefer it to be kept inside me.

Please dear God, make tomorrow a better day for me. I just simply cant wait for the clock to strike 12 tonight!

I need ur help

2011-04-15T12:30:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

I'm in the library now. NO! not to study but to kill the time. I have IMS at 3 so here I am blogging while waiting for another 2.5 hours. *sigh*
Anyway, this has been a rough week for us. One of our friend got admitted last week due to SOB. And after Chest X-ray was done the dr said she had spontaneous pneumothorax. funny aint it. out of no where, suddenly,u wake up from bed and has difficulty in breathing. so u went to the hospital thinking it might just be asthmatic attack (if u have one) or allergic reaction (maybe). turns out it is spontaneous pneumothorax and when the dr did further investigation, u were told that ure having Lymphangioleiomyomatosis!. Lymphan...what? ok seriously none of us ever heard of that! never knew such word ever existed! ok maybe we were so ignorant kot. hmph.
Then u as a medical student of course know the power of googling or wiki-ing or e-medscaping and quickly browse into every possible websites available. and ta-dahhhhh!
IT IS NOT GOOD! then the dr came and explain to you more on the disease and even tell you the prognosis! which is not good at all! :(
and to make things worst, u've had nephrectomy before when you were small and now your lung cannot handle the abundant of cysts that have been growing hay-wirely there and therefore the dr suggested you to undergo FULL LUNGS TRANSPLANT!
And for assurance, the dr asked for further investigation throughout the body and guess what...the brain,kidney and liver has been affected too! :'(

imagine that! at a very young age, where you were a healthy girl and cheerful and actively walking and laughing and talking and poooooffff! suddenly you need a pair of new lungs! how devastating was that!

This is a true story mind you. I'm not making up any fairy tales here.
So dear readers, please-please pray for my friend speedy recovery. Even if you dont know her, but your doa is meaningful not just to he but also to the rest of us! we want our Nabila Ramlan back. The world seems to be different when she's unable to talk and walk and laugh and eat and etcetcetc anymore.

Yesterday was the last time I saw her as she has been transfered to HUKM in the evening. She couldnt talk much as she was in pain due to the chest tube that was inserted AGAIN into her right lung. sakit okay chest tube! like sumpah sakit! though I've never experienced one, but looking at the procedure was just super-super painful!

All I can do now is to pray for her condition to get better and not anymore worst.

God has planned well for His creatures but seeing her suffering like this makes me feel sad and horrible! I couldnt do anything for her except giving support and doa! to be honest I only know her few months. not that long but then she is a friend of mine whom I respect and adore.

Lately, I've been seeing so many people fallen sick or gone to the other world. is it a sign for something? God forbid, I hope its not!

All about March!

2011-03-31T00:06:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

SORRYYYYYYYYYY for lack of updates. Life's been fair to me up until this moment and Thank You God for that! :)

Anyways,i'll just summarize up things that happened in the month of March here ok. just sit back and relax. kalau xnk boleh sila klik pangkah kat hujung belah kanan! hahaha EMOOOOOOOOOO!

1) Started my Sem 7 with Orthopaedic posting. tapayah la google, ortho is about tulang temulang! At first I found it to be damn susahhhh!! cause there're 1001 types of fractures with THEIR own classification. boleh gile ok! But then after Dr. N helped us by teaching the most common fractures and things that we need to know, I find Ortho to be interesting. Honestly! But then, me being ME! did not make full use of my 5 weeks of posting (this is my last week by the way) and play around and sekarang menyesal tak sudah!!! :( I feel like I havent gone through enough of Ortho yet. I still feel like an idiot especially after Viva 1 with Dr CK. OH ADE VIVA YE for Ortho posting. %@$%@!*&%! that was my first time experience in Viva and I did quite badddddd. sampaikan masa debriefing, the lect wanted to point out the mistakes that we made and he actually pointed out MY BLOODY HELL KESALAHAN! And of course I know lah kan since I was the one who got the question!!! Then today ade Viva 2 with another doctor and Alhamdulillah I did great in this one! bukan nak memuji diri sendiri but I'm fully satisfied with my performance just now! :D YEAY!
Soooooooo, my clinical exam for ortho is on Friday and I havent master up any Physical examinations yet! UGHHHHHHHHHH! I seriously have no idea what have I been doing for the past 5 weeks!!! hurmm :(
next posting kene berusaha GIGIH although its just Psychiaty posting! haha. not that I'm underestimating that posting but Psych dah la FREEEEE giler lagi la berfoya2 24/7 kannnnnnn. oh lord! but then at the end of Psych posting ade MCQ test for Ortho+Psych. so kene FOCUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! ok beesya!

moving on...

2) My front neighbour passed away due to 2nd attack of stroke. She had the second attack right before she was supposed to go to Mekah for Haji (ke Umrah..lupe da). She was in comatose state for so long and passed away in HKL. Al-Fatihah to her.
Then a week after that, my mom told me that my back neighbour passed away too! (creeepy enough kan?!) She lived alone in the house and if I'm not mistaken she fell in the bathroom and passed away on the spot. Her relatives then came over to look for her as they could not contact her and found her in the bathroom! pity her kan. I dah la bercita-cita to grow old alone. haish......al-Fatihah to her too....

Then on the 18th of March, our family got 1 hell of a shocking news! My maklong passed away! :(((( It was like a blow to all of us! No one expected her to go this early and so sudden. She was diagnosed with Sarcoma 4 years back but she was fine when I saw her three weeks before she's gone forever during her youngest son's wedding. I REALLY DO MISSED HER a lot! My family is quite close to her and She always come to my house when she was still alive. :'(( Now, I missed her fruit cake, pudding lychee and masak lemak udang! The last time I ate her cooking would be on my cousin's doa selamat kenduri which was the day when I arrived from Melbourne! Oh ade hikmah why we accidentally chose to reached Msia on Saturday morning. :(
But above all, thank god she managed to see her Bang E's wedding before that. Mom did tell all of us earlier to not postpone the wedding cause Mak Long's condition is an unpredictable one. And at that time, I was like, nahhhhhhh..she's fine. She's totally fine! but boy I was wrong! It was like my mom got an instinct from God to make the wedding sooner.
to my dear Mak Long,
May you rest in peace up there. You left us on a peaceful Friday morning and now you're in His safe hands. You'll always be in my heart and I'll never ever forget you until the day I die. Thank you so much for every single thing that you have done to me and my family. You're definitely the best Mak Long I could have asked for. See you in the next chapter of life. :'((((

moving on...ok this is too sad but I still need to finish this entry tonight.

3) Since I started my sem 7, I havent seen him anywhere in the hospital yet. sedih glr ok. I tried coming as early as possible just to bump into him at the elevator but nahhhhhhh. takde pon. but yesterday I saw his signature as he came to review his ENT patient in the ward and I was so happy in the inside. kat luar cover macho sket la though muke excited glr tgk his cop kat clerking sheet tu.LOL!

I have no idea what to type anymore. Basically this sums up bulan March ye. yang more to sedih than happy. hopefully April is wayyyyyyyyy better that this. amin!
soooooooooo....have an awesome day/night people!

mwax <3!

:(

2011-03-15T20:41:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

I'm frustrated!
as you already know, the tix to Mars's concert is sold out! :(
ok it was my mistake for not buying it earlier cause I was waiting for the ticketpro.com to sell theirs. but at the end, they DID NOT open the tix at all! they just stated there, "SOLD OUT". pffffffftttttttt!!! grrrrrrrrr!

And when I called them this afternoon, they said yes the tix is totally sold out and then i asked why do you have to put it up online of you do not intend to sell it in the first place. he replied it was for advertising purpose! WTH! hello! who the hell advertise and NOT SELLING tix on this kind of website!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
:(((((((((((((((((((

ok so now bye bye Mars! those of you who got the tix, you guys are damn lucky and i envy each and everyone of you! :'(

on another note, GREEK has ended!!! :(
*waaaaaa apsal sedih sgt March ni :'(*
the ending was a sad one. I mean its GREEK forgodsake! how can you end this series with such emotions! but on a brighter note, Cappie graduated and they revealed his real name!!!! which I cant remember now *danggg!*. He and Cassie move to DC to look for job and build a new life together. ok that is something sweet la kan.
and ohhhh! Rusty is now with Ashley ftw!!! who ever thought they would be together some day. Evan and Rebecca broke up before the end of the show and I did not see any chance that they gonna get back together, so yeah.

oooooooooohhh I'm so gonna miss GREEK!!!!!!
So now 1 series down, 5 more to go! :)

p/s: I should be updating about my current posting but I'm just too lazy to tell grandmother story here. but anyways, I'm in ortho now. tulang-temulang!

hello-hello

2011-02-22T23:40:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

miss me much people? lols!
okok.I reached home last Saturday around 9 am after touching down at 7.30 am (delayed sedikit). Anyways, I'm not gonna blog the whole thing on my holiday here sebab agak kemalasan now. So here's another update based on point form! hehehe :p

Random facts on my journey to and fro Melbourne!

- Balik ke Malaysia dengan PERAMUGARA AIR ASIA YANG HAWTTTTTTTTTTT weh!!! PERAMUGARA OK!! steward not stewardess! fuhh~ but too bad since we took night flight, hence all the lights went off 45 minutes after departure and most of the passengers were asleep including yours truly. I grabbed seat next to us sebab takde orang so aksi superman pon bermula! hehehe. The flight back was quite empty compared to flight pergi.
Oh godddd handsome weh steward dia! never thought that Air Asia could come out with such good looking steward!!! but as usual, the stewardess so-so je or is it because i'm a girl, so I dont find other girl to be attractive eh? LOLS!

moving on!

- I shopped till I drop like literally weh! the stuff in the DFO were darn CHEAP! never thought I would be spending so much there.I bought myself 5 pairs of jeans! (1 for my sis) semua yg berbaloi-baloi! trust me when I say berbaloi cause though I go for branded stuff but I still go for the ones within my budget and not simply buy stuff that would cost me a fortune! So yeah, anyone going to Melbourne soon, sila lah ke DFO South Wharf where you can go wild and crazy over the things they have there. But mind you that the promotions are not everyday. Depends on ur luck jugak la.

- The beaches are AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! malu weh bile fikir all those mat salleh coming to Malaysia and visit our beach yang macam tempat perlupusan sampah tu. -.-'
The beaches are soooooooo clean! the water is crystal clear! the sand is so smooth and no sampah at all! gile best okkkkkkk!

- The public transports are awesome as well (likewise Singapore). Malaysia seriously need to do lots of homework from these countries if we want to compete with them in this area.

- Australians are super nice!! They'll greet you with a wide smile on the face whenever you enter the shop/at the custom check/at the counter/ask them for directions/etcetcetc! God I love Australians!!! Out of 100 people, adalah seorang dua orang yang agak racism (maybe?) towards us but the rest were super nice and helpful and friendly and whatnot! they even speak politely with each other wehhh!!! tak rempit langsong which is something that I adore them so much!
Whats not too love about them, you tell me now!

- The speed limit is 100 km/hr je which is something I dislike. ughhhhhhh!

- OH sila makan Blok M (Indonesian food) dekat street mana lupa dah. SEDAP GILE!!!! but damn expensive. 10 AUD for a plate. lepas makan chilli's kat Malaysia wehhhhhhhh.

- Kangaroo is not cute at alll!!!!! they're WILD and rakus and greedy and ughhhh!!! But wombat is cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! kawaiiiiiiiiiii!!! pegi tgk gamba dekat fb eh! :D

- I prefer Melbourne than Sydney maybe because Melbourne city is kinda less congested and I just love the way the government arranged the city to be what it looks like now

- Zillions of thanx to Meera and Homi for letting us crash their house and cooked for us!!!!!!!! TERHARUUUUUU gile! thanx-thanx-thanx! I'll pray for success to always be with you two lovelies!

- The fact that their tap water is super clean really amazed me! macam best gile okeh bukak paip,tadah gelas and MINOM! and you'll never get sore throat at all! even Mija, whos apparently has deformed tonsils and mmg sensitif dengan air paip selamat minom air paip dorg. like woaaaa mmg CLEAN.proven! confirmed!

- I hate the fact that the shop there closes at 6 pm! like 6 freaking pm! Imagine if u feel like shopping after the whole day in the hospital, tak ke sedeh giler tgk kedai semua dah tutupppppppp! Thats the worst part actually. So time shopping kami hanya until 6 pm je :(

- This is my second consecutive Valentine day yang dicelebrate luar Malaysia with girlfriends! woot-woot! and I'm thinking of making it a trend to go overseas every V-day. paling jaoh Singapore pon jadi leeee.asalkan dapat hang out with my gorgeous girlfriends! Who knows, next year, I celebrate kat India pulak ke dgn Ieeda/Chy! :DDD

hmmm what else ehhhh..I'll update more about my holiday later k.
toodles!
mwax-mwax!

"Jar of Hearts" - Christina Perri (Sam Tsui Cover)

2011-02-22T18:34:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

:')

2011-02-02T19:48:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

Day by day..month by month..year by year..

Slowly He shows me the reason why I'm not the chosen one to study in anywhere else but Malaysia.

3 years back, it felt like I was the most useless person on earth. I've let my parents down. I was frustrated. That was my first failure ever! After 19 years of living, that was the first time I felt terribly hurt deep down inside me. I was cool on the outside but not in the inside and my father saw that in me. He once told me, "It is not the end of the world yet. There are so much more to come". And then I got into IMU and I felt extremely relieved.

The moments, my friends who managed to go to the next level left me, I was in despair. I was left alone. ALL of my close friends left me.
But He, the most gracious,most merciful showed me the bliss of remaining here in Malaysia.
And I found new friends. I bond with the sweetest, nicest, smartest people here.
Alhamdulillah!

I dont think I can survive with the current issues if I'm somewhere in Cairo (for instance) . I'm not that strong. I may look brave and can manage "homesick" or "familysick" but I honestly cannot deal with some gigantic world issues which involves life and death.

To my brothers and sisters out there, have faith in yourself and in Him most importantly. He never failed to let us down so keep on praying and everything's gonna be alright. Its just the matter of time.

Its not Sunday but Rainy day

2011-01-30T15:27:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

It has been raining since morning and there's no sign of sun coming out anytime soon. Gloomy indeed.
The weather is not helping me to study or do anything at all. I vowed to wake up early today so that I can do something productive but hell no! Nothing has been accomplished and I woke up at 11 freaking am! When I hear the sound of rain drops, I pulled the comforter closer to my body automatically and continued sleeping until 12.30 pm! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

And now I'm blogging. -.-'

and oh, I'm on 1 week of holiday now :D:D:D

but right after the holiday, i'll be having my EOP exam with Ms. Jasiah on Monday itself. On Friday pulak, all of us will be sitting for EOP Theory paper for all 3 postings. Though its only MCQ but from what I heard from the seniors, the paper is tough as hell! (and I havent start revising Internal Med and Family Med yettttt! great!)

Oh the next day is......HOLIDAY! cant wait! weeeeeeee!

tickets-checked
money-still in RM
clothes-still in progress
holiday plan-still in progress

so thats it for now.ciao!

Khurafat

2011-01-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

This is my second movie review for today.
I went to watched Khurafat today at Jusco,S2 with me,myself and I. It was an impromptu decision as I've been eyeing to watch this movie since the day it released. But then no one wants to come along so today, nak tak nak tengok jugak la sorang-sorang. To be honest, watching horror movie alone is not a good idea. AT ALL!
watching cheesy romantic movie alon boleh lagi laaa but not horror movie ye tuan-tuan puan-puan.

The storyline was interesting! Menarik! Grats to the director and script writer for the good job. and no wonder the movie has generate RM6 million since it has been released.

Seram tak? haaaaaaaaa. honestly, SERAMMMMMMM!!! sebab dorg act with "gula-gula bungkus" which I dislike at all!!!!

I can stand any other ghost but not that one. And I have no idea at all about how the ghost will look like in here. damnnnn! pastu pergi sorg2 kan.nah amik ko!

Johan (Syamsul Yusof), a medical assistant married to Aishah (Liyana Jasmay) though he already had a girlfriend before (Sabrina Ali).

At first their marriage life was normal with no sorts of "gangguan" until one night when "something" started to disturbed both of them. They thought that it was Johan's ex-gf dirty job to separate both of them since she has been begging him to take her as his wife every now and then. But at the end, it was someone else's job whom you did not expect at all! I did not expect it was Sabrina's job too but I suspected the wrong person.haha.
Anyhow, the ghost effect was awesome weh! SERAM GLR OK! and banyak scene terkejot.
So pregnant mother, heart disease patient and even patient with urinary incontinence, sile jangan tonton!
Though the movie is a piece of success I should say but then there are still some flaws that I realise in it.

The flaws:
1) Medical Assistant kaya raya beb mampu beli 3 bijik kereta! taw la his wife comes from a rich family but then tak kan lah pak mertua bagi keta 3 bijik kot!
2) Mane ada orang/waris/pelawat sign dekat kad kuning patient!!! adoiiiiiii ai! Doctor je yang boleh sign situ laaaa.kot ye pon just give any A4 paper/any forms la suruh sign
3) Ward malam-malam takde la gelap sangat macam tu. And at least there should be a houseman/doctor in charge. Ini sekor pon tarak. What if ada patient tiba-tiba heart attack ka? (ok, a bit emotional here LOL)
4) After accident, kereta da guling-guling jatuh gaung, boleh lagi la ko hidup+no fractures+luka-luka je?! then boleh siap lari-lari lagi and paling tak boleh bla, dukung mayat berbungkus ok!!!! Then at the end it was just a dream eh? eh ye ke.
5) Tengah rushing-rushing balik kampung cause mak mertua ko da muntah darah, sempat lagi ko bubuh eye shadow ikut kaler baju ehh. pastu siap boleh lilit-lilit tudung lagi haaa
6) I'm confused gak ni rumah dia dengan rumah mertua dekat sangat ke sampai boleh balik ambil and datang balik sebab nak admit dekat hosp Johan. ehhhhh.

eh macam nk bomb orang pulak eh..HAHAHAA!
no-no. this movie is not bad la.this is just my 2 cents je. but overall movie ni is one of the best horror movie I've seen so far. I rated it as 8 out of 10 :)

ok enough for movie review today. 4 post in a row dah ni.
toodles people :D

! Chris Medina - Break Even : American Idol 10 Auditions !

2011-01-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

I just had to post this vid here.
This guy here is DEFINITELY-DEFINITELY the sweetest guy on earth! no one can ever beat him like seriously!
and to his fiancee, your man is absolutely an INCREDIBLE and AMAZING person alive!
God bless both of you :')

I cried after watching it. this man is already a World Idol!
Guys out there, please take note.

I dont ask you to sing like him, but to appreciate woman like him :')

Faster!

2011-01-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

This is my first moview review of 2011. And this is also the first movie I watched in cinema this year. been busy lately so yeahh.

When was the last time u see The Rock aka Dwayne Johnson in full-throttle action movie?? years ago righttt..heres a comeback from him! this is definitely his time to shine again.
The rock acted as Driver is an ex-con who apparently came alive after pronounced death by the doctor. He got shot at the back of the head by one of the gang after they got ambushed by them. Driver together with his brother and 2 more guys robbed a bank before and suddenly these guys came and attacked them and took all the money away.
Lucky him that he survived the bullet shot but the others were dead. So his mission now is to seek revenge on his brother death by killing the whole gang one by one.

The action was superb I should say as the director said in "in the making" that no stunt actors were used. All of it are purely from the actors so agak kagum la.

There's another "Killer" in the movie played by Oliver Jackson-Cohen who was a nerd@geek before but now he is a multi millionaire who owns a luxury house with awesome cars and a hot girlfriend. AND OH HE HAS BRITISH ACCENT TOO and BODY YG MANTAP (eh apesal caps lock? HAHA) which makes him smexyyyyy! He had changed his lifestyle from a nerdy guy to a killer and only take $1 for each task given to him. So his task here is well..to kill Driver.

Billy Bob Thornton is a cop in here. A lousy cop who turned out to be the master of the culprit at the end. But last-last mati jugak tembak dengan Driver. Only one person from the gang survived. He is now a priest/father who is fully devoted to god and that is why Driver did not killed him. I guess la.

Though the ending showed that the bad guys lost and the good ones win but then I seriously dont get the role of the killer (Oliver Jackson-Cohen). It seems to me that they (the director) just had to put a young handsome guy with a hot girlfriend to make the movie more interesting. Because the point here is that he DID NOT kill anybody at all! Not Driver not anyone. macam apekahhhhhhhh!!!!! Honestly, I dont see the role of him in the movie. LOLS!
But then dapat cuci mata la kejap.ngehhhhh :p

All in all I rated this movie 8 out of 10!
I recommend u to watch it if:
1) u're a big fan of The Rock
2) you want to see some action pack movie
3) you seriously dont have any other choices left

Hope this one helps you guys out there though its a bit late already :)

3 words.

2011-01-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

hati bunga-bunga!!!!

HEHEHE!

masa: 8 am.
tempat kejadian: lift HTJ
saksi: NONE! its just me n him! <3!

I was late this morning. but it was late on purpose la since there's no CP and I went to bed late last night due to unfinished report and case summaries.
Tengok-tengok he was there waiting for the lift too. OH BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! :D

But hmmm. I dont know why, this time, the excitedness is like fading away.
Is this a sign from the Man above that this is not a right thing for me to do and hence I should stop whatever shit I'm doing pronto!
hmmm lets just wait until the end of posting shall we. HEHEHE.

OH LEPAS TU! I went to 8B just to kill the time and I saw him there reviewing patients. Oh this time dah tak excited sangat since I already met him earlier kan.haha

kk.da terlebih gedik so bai!

LOLS!

2011-01-26T19:28:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

I once again bumped into him..but this time dekat IMU!!! he had his lunch at the cafeteria there.
He was walking towards the lift and I was at the opposite direction of course. While chatting to his friend, he smiled at me :):):):):)

hati bunga-bunga!!!

weeeeeeeeeeee :)

Though its just a smile! LOL! I must be kidding righttttttt. But at least he noticed me :p

Oh maybe he already has a girlfriend or tunang or worst a WIFE!

Who cares! He's my eye candy in HTJ :)

I tweet about this just now and ramai betul yg curious yeeeeeee! LOLS!
Ish girlsss! curiosity killed the cats!!! tak kesian ke kucing tu mati korang ni..ishh

ok its lame bee! :p

p/s: nampak sgt all this while LOSER! my twitter/blog have never been about guys whom I adore before EXCEPT for celebrity crushes! itu belakang cerita laaaa.haha

Kelas Menjahit!

2011-01-20T19:48:00.009+08:00

hey boo..

We had suturing class with Dato K yesterday. Nope, its not on a human being but on a piece of yuccccky chicken's skin.
The smell was just purely "fantastic"! I almost puked but thinking that it is Dato K's class, so just tahaaaaaaaaaaan je la.
We did 2 types of suturing which is Interrupted and Continuous suture.
There are some rules that you must follow from the moment you tear off the needle+needle material case until you're done suturing.
To be honest I enjoyed the class despite the fact that I honestly dont know and hate sewing clothes. Suturing and sewing are more or less the same la. Except that suturing is done on a human being (skin,vessels,organs).

So this is my masterpiece!

on the left is the interrupted suture while on the right is the continuous suture
the instruments (left-right): tooth forceps, non tooth forceps, small needle, scissors, needle holder

close up on the Interrupted suture. Pardon me for the knots yg bersepah-sepah! I'm a newbie okkkk.
Supposedly, the knots should all be at one side. Unlike mine up there where some of it are at the Right side, some at the left and there's even 1 or 2 dekat tengah-tengah! LOL!

this is the continuous suture which is much more easier than the interrupted one

The main difference between both suture is that the latter one has only 2 knots. One at the beginning and the other one at the end. Whereas the Interrupted one has knots at every "line".

and oh, weeks ago, we learned how to tie the reef knot:

Looks easy but actually its a bit confusing! There are few knots available if u google it out but Dato K only taught us the reef knot as he said that the Surgeon's knot is not suggestible for us.
and bdw, we sutured guna needle holder and forceps ok. not by hand! ur bare hands are not allow to make contact with the needle. It is one of the rules la. Use the needle holder to pick up the tiny needle and make sure that you are aware of where the needle at ALL THE TIMES. This is to prevent from needle stick injury or any other unnecessary injuries to you and to the patient.

On another note, Happy Thaipusam to all my Indian friends out there. :)

2011-01-18T21:32:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

hello people.how have you guys been doing?
i've got so many things to tell here but im just plain lazy to type it all out.
Anyways,some updates on my current posting which is Surgery

1) So far, everything is fine except that I personally find Surgery is not easy!! haishh..orang lain semua cakap Surgery lah paling senang yada yada but me???!!
2) Had CP with Dato K twice and boy he's scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! at first lah.after half an hour, he change to a totally different person!! so nice yet sarcastic.ngeh!
3) Watched 2 surgeries so far..the first one was Transanal excision of Polyp but itu sangatlah booooooooring! all I can see was the anus! thats it! we are not allowed to go near the operating table so kena lah stand rapat-rapat to the wall.
The second one was Mastectomy which was done by Mr. N. omg he's super skillful! The surgery was done in half an hour je okay! handal glr!
4) And I havent seen any endoscope done on any patients yet. Bet i'm the only soul who havent seen one.haha!

Semester 6 is coming towards the end already. :(
Truth to be told, I enjoyed Semester 6 as there are less stress and no super big exam for me to think of. Semester 7 ada EOS which is really-really scaryyyyyyy..*gulps*

oh-oh! I saw "someone" in the lift this morning and he smiled at me :):):):):)
I ape lagi, teros la say hi to him and borak-borak skettttttt je. Apparently hes still in the hosp YAY! thought he has left for district posting or KK or mana2 la.
ngeeeeeeee! I went head over heels like literally wehhhh!!! I was practically smiling the whole time especially when he came to my ward to review the ENT patients. He saw me (and obviously I noticed him as he entered the ward) and smile AGAIN!!!
ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :):):)

hati bunga-bunga!!! YOU MADE MY DAY

But thats just it la. oh bdw,he's an Indian doctor who is not cute according to my INDIAN friends! bluek! Its the heart that matters! not the look la tapi he's cute okkk.
I dont think I have blogged about him earlier but yeah I saw him at the A&E during my A&E oncall months ago. He was really nice entertaining us the under-knowledge medical students (just like Grey's last week :p). He thought us few things too and was really-really nice. :)

ok ni dah macam post menggedik pfffffffttttt!

Oh now I cant wait for my 2 freaking weeks of holiday!!! Melbourne,here I come :D:D:D
Hopefully all is well.amin!

Guess thats it for now.toodles.
mwax!

2011-01-06T20:20:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

This is a super duper stressful week.
Hence pardon me for the lack of updates.

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

:(

I turned 22 on 1111

2011-01-01T18:33:00.004+08:00

hey boo..

I'm officially one year older today.*sigh*
I'm 22 now, no more forever 21 for me tsktsktsk. Anyways,NYE last night was hmmm nothing. Spent the night in bed in front of the TV and I actually did not bother to join the countdown on the TV. Maybe because I was answering my sis's birthday call by the time they did the countdown. whatever la.
Anyways,I started off the day by Mama giving me angpow for my expenses to (oh shit,belom bagitau lagi ehhh. ;p) somewhere in February. Its not that much but THANK YOU MAMA! boleh buat duit makan tuuuu :DDDDD
Then I took my bath, went down for breakfast and teros mula MASAK! yerpp u heard me right! The first proper thing that I did for the year 2011 was cooking!!!! ok thats weird some of you may say but entah lah suddenly I have the urge of to learn how to cook.
But tadi masak spagetti je so amat la senangggggg and it turned out to be yummmmeeeh!!! sampai Mama yang tak suka pon cakap sedap! :) (adakah nak menyedapkan hati I ke ape? hehe)
But I dont feel like learning all those Malay food ie Masak lemak la,kari la,or blablabla. I just want to cook simple dishes like spagetti! haha! ok tu tak payah belajar pon boleh taw. moving on.....ahahahhaa
Tapi I love to masak dessert! So far ada la 2-3 dessert I made and most of them tak jadi sgt especially triffle! ohhhhhhhhh sedeh gile! dah la banyak glr I buat and end up jadi ape entah! salah quantity of air so jadi lembek and no one wants to eat it and gedebush ke dalam tong sampah.:(
Dulu pernah try buat custard jagung pastu jadi keras! HAHAHA!
I have no skills for cooking at all! maybe itulah salah satu sebab I tak dapat fly overseas kot. Kalau tak confirm makin kerempeng la badan ni ha.LOLS!

Okok melalut-melalut...moving on.....

Zillion of Thanks to every single person who wished me via phone,message,Twitter and Facebook. Most of them Facebook la of course! I feel loved! awwwwwww :')
I did not expect it honestly but hey, you guys are super-duper awesome! May God bless each one of you with success throughout 2011 :)
And to Ieeda and Iena dearie who called all the way from India and sang Happy Birthday, just so you guys know, aku tengah mamai time tu sebab dah tido! HAHAHAHA!!!
but disebabkan suara korg yg mantap teros jadi segar bugar ;p Thanks love! :')

random facts: This year is the first time I celebrated my birthday with no cake! Like nil,nada,zero! And I also didnt ask Mama to buy one for me. SYNDROME DAH TUA KE???!!! oh shits!

Oh well, my new year resolution is to pass EOS 7 and to be more hardworking (as if! HAHA)! amin and ~~to get someone special~~ pfffffffttt HAHAHA!...
So whats your new year resolution?

2011-01-01T15:37:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

Just got to know that Faizal Yusof, the actor has passed away today due to heart attack in Hospital Pusrawi,Kuala Lumpur.

Al-fatihah to him. May you rest in peace with Him up there :)

p/s: sakit jantung memang sangat common among Malaysian. GO visit any Medical ward in any hospital and you can see that more than half of the patients admitted there are due to heart problem. Hence,be healthy and stay healthy people.

Protect your heart <3!

summary of my twenty-ten

2010-12-31T18:20:00.002+08:00

hey boo..

Since today is the last day of 2010, I wanna put up an entry about what I did in 2010. But in point form la..oh sekarang malas nak karang ayat ye :)

JANUARY
- Well first thing first...MY 21st birthday! :) Aten n afiq made surprise birthday celebration for me and THANKS a lot guys! that was really-really sweet :')
- Then I did my GP posting at Klinik Tawakal in Senawang and it was fine although the dr was not that friendly. So the lesson here is to find a female dr ye Bee!
- and the least important point is I made my first ever passport in this month. hehe

FEBRUARY
- Went to Singapore with Aten. jalan-jalan+shopppping :)
- Started my last semester in Bukit Jalil with Community Medicine. blergh bosan je com med ni. And I had to do a 60+ pages report on it yang sgt lah urghhhh!

MARCH
- Started the MSK system and its all about anatoooomyyyyy.but that was fun! Memang almost everyday after class pergi MMS with aifaa. Memang terasa rajin! :D
- Bought my first ever dress for IMU Ball (eh ni important event gak okkkk ;p)

APRIL
- Went wall climbing for the first time (and prolly the last time..hehe) at Putrajaya
- Attended IMU Ball and it was SUPERRR AWESOMEEEEEEE!!!! I want balls/dinner lagi!!!

MAY
- STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYY d whole month! (haha tipu je ni.not the whole month la of course weekend poye-poye gak ;p)
- Had summative exam and it sucked.period
- and this was also the EMO month.hmm.

JUNE
- Had EOS 5 and I PASSED ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!! :DDDDDDD
- ~~World cup which I couldnt care less~~
- Holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DDDD

JULY
- Went to Singapore again but this time around with my sis and her friends. Oh we went to USS and it was FUNNNNNNNNN :DDDDD
- Went to the North part with Aifaa and met Salbi and off the three of us to Langkawi :). OH BEST GILER!!!! they're definitely the best companions one could ask for :)
- Family outing with cousins and cousins.

AUGUST
- Attended my first convocation day ever. oh we have 2 convocation so that was my first one. The second one will be at the very end of this 5 years of studying.
- Discovered Torch! and has been aiming for it since then :)
- Its Ramadhan and I fasted at home for the whole month.Alhamdullilah
- 30th August....registered myself as a Student Doctor in IMU,Seremban

SEPTEMBER
- Started my 8-5 routine in IMU,Seremban with Internal Medicine posting.
- ITS RAYA!!! it was the best Raya after 3-4 years of gloomy Hari Raya
- Raya convoy with my 0105 members.best-best :)

OCTOBER
- Still in Internal Med posting and I enjoyed every single moments of it :)
- I think it was at this month that I slowly managed to overcome my so-called phobia towards blood or any surgical procedure which involved incision on the skin and inserting tube into the body i.e chest tube insertion!
- found out that one of my 0105 members is getting married!!!!!

NOVEMBER
- Started my Family Medicine posting and it was hmmmmm.....boring?
- Fallen sick after years of being purely healthy! and my fever was really-really bad and but thank god it was not Dengue fever. phewww!
- BOUGHT MY TORCHIEEEEEEE!!! THANKS TO DiGi for making my dream comes true! I got it at a very CHEAP price! weeee :DDDD. And yeah, Im happily using it now :):)
- Decided to cut my hair short. yeps! no more ponytails dah. And I actually like the new style coz I dont have to tie my hair up and it is very easy to manage

DECEMBER
- Still in Fam Med posting and it is getting better in some ways la
- Had a huge-huge crush on one of the K-pop artist which eventually made me love their songs! HAHA! at last....kan!
- Started my Surgery posting and so far so gooooood :)
- and here I am typing out this post

Well-well, nothing much has been achieved besides passing my EOS 5.~~still no boyfriend~~
Hopefully twenty-eleven will be a GREAT NEW year for me :)

Happy New Year people and Have a great-great one ok :)

I LOVE shopping & I HATE kids!

2010-12-22T23:21:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

That was what I told Dato K when he asked us to introduced ourselves in class just now.
It took me 5 minutes to come out with it. :p

Yes I DO LOVEEEEEEEE SHOPPING! and I REALLY HATE KIDS! especially those who running around and SHOUTING their lungs out in the shopping malls or even CINEMA. VERY IRRITATING ok! but actually we should blame the parents. who the hell brings 1 year old kid to watch movie! bukan die paham pon okkkkkkkkkkk!!! grrrrrr!

babies are fine! :)
they are cute but the minute they start to cry, ok thats it. you're no more adorable to me!

Maybe its due to the "youngest child syndrome" that I dont like any other small kids besides me in the family or in my surroundings.
But I have to face the fact that my sis in law is currently pregnant and I'll be having niece/nephew in like 5 months time. OH MY GOD!
I'll be the worst aunt ever! BUT LIKE I CAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

yesh please, call me mean!

Anyways, surgeon memang suka suruh orang introduce2 eh. On Monday, Prof L asked us to do the same thing but luckily up until front row people. Honestly, I hate introducing myself coz I'm a very "basic" girl. I dont have any extra talent nor any specific likings in life.

oh today is Surgery day 3 and so far so good!
Lets hope for a better day tomorrow.InsyaAllah.

toodles~

ChurpChurp | Social Share » Be part of the Invent Your Own iPad Application Contest and Win! (Preview)

2010-12-20T12:57:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

here's another ad from the bird!

Ipad anyone?? ok let me specify the question.

Any creative, artsy people out there up for an iPad with the help of ur undeniably outstanding talent??

click on this link to find out how ChurpChurp | Social Share » Be part of the Invent Your Own iPad Application Contest and Win! (Preview)

wuwuwu. sedih sebab tidak creative. blergh.

2010-12-19T14:58:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

This is just a short update from yours truly

Tomorrow will be the 1st day for my last posting of this semester (oh gosh! how time fliesssssssss!!!) which is SURGERY!
*gulps*

honestly, i'm excited and kinda freaked out now. actually more to freaked out!
so many things I've heard from this posting especially on the not so good part la.

haish.

be positive bee! think positive!
I'm hoping all my Positive energy will be there for the whole 7 weeks! amin.

oh bdw, just a random one.. Since my fav-fav shows are all on hold now, so I've turned into Hindi movie! Romantic hindi movie to be exact! so far I've watched 5 since last Thursday and all of them are awesome!!!!! :DDDDD
I still have 5 more to go. semua nya hasil download bertubi-tubi.hehe!
later I'll update on the movies and which one is highly recommended for you guys to watch. but bear in mind that all of them are romantic-ish movie. not action or thriller or whatnot hokayhhhh.

Sayonara FAMILY MEDICINE! ;')

2010-12-16T21:22:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

So today is officially my last day in Family Medicine posting ;'''')
HAHA! poyo je nak nanges kannnnnnnnnnnnnn..
padahal I was the one who hate it so much.remember my prev post? LOL

Things that I'm going to missed in this posting:
1) Sitting down all the way from 8am-12pm :)
2) Dont have to rush in the morning. I can take my own sweet time to go KK every single day
3) Super nice lecturers although some of them are a bit sarcastic
4) My leisure time at night where I can sit on front of the TV or laptop without feeling guilty
5) Food at the cafe which is nice :)

oh well, I couldnt think of anymore points but definitely not the patients there nor the system that we used. First of all the patients in KK are not my fav at all! well its a clinic hence 50% of them came for MC forgodsake. They willing to wait up until 2 hours just to get a bloody MC for free! yelah kalau pergi luar kene charge 20 bucks the cheapest.
Secondly, the MO's there are RUDE except for 1 or 2 who are super kind to attend the patients. But most of them are really-really rude and didnt treat the patients passionately. Like hello I know that you're exhausted of seeing more than 50 patients per day but doesnt mean you can put such an attitude in front of them. You dont have to scold them if they said something wrongly. Just imagine if those people are your parents, do you want ME to scold them just like what you did?

Among all those unlikeable dr, there was one dr. who really inspires me. He is a non-malay guy fyi and he's super duper nice to the patients and also to US, the medical students. He treat all patients nicely even though he had no assistant to helped him out in the room. When I offered my help, dia teros cakap you guys are here to learn so its okay I can manage all this thing. Kalau dr. lain dah suke dah tu. haha.
He himself had to do all the job (write MC book, prescription, case notes, referrel letter if needed, physio form if needed and etc etc etc). Oh mind you that each room has one assistant nurse who is assisting the dr. in all those job in the bracket above except for prescription and case notes la. But this guy here is so amazing that he can do all job at one time and yet he still has the time to SMILE and greet ALL patients NICELY! I SERIOUSLY ADORE YOU! and oh, he's cute too.winkkkkk ^^
But his cuteness couldnt compete with the semangat gigih that he has in him. When I asked him why would he work in a KK and not private GP clinic, he replied," I have set my goal to treat people not because of money. I want to give out my service based on the medical aspect itself." <--ok ayat telah diubah tetapi intipati memang ini la.
GILE ETHICAL punya dr. okkkkkkkk. He is the first dr. that I've ever met and talked who really showed me doctor is not an occupation where you are busy chasing money instead of diseases. Gile terharu okkkkk dengar dia cakap and some more he is a young guy, graduated from Manipal, baru bekerja 6 tahun.
Oh-oh did I mention that he is super smart! He taught us lots of things in 3 hours. He even explain everything in all the jargons which sounds greek to us but that shows that he is really an intelligent dr. Oh-oh bertambah-tambah adore ok!
But too bad, I found him on Monday and this is my last@final week in Family Medicine and I wont be seeing him again after this. GILE SEDIHHHHHHHHHHHHH! T.T

Ok now is the third point which is the system that we use in KK. Well basically when you have teaching clinic, you need to find patient from the out patient department(OPD) for you to clerk in front of your collegues and lect. But the thing is, most of the patients refused to come whenever we approached them. Dah bagitau ada pakar dekat atas/ teros masok tak payah tunggu/ sama sahaja treatment cuma yg ini teros masok/ etc etc etc pon they still refused to follow us. Only a handful yang willingly follow us to our room at the 2nd floor.
And then some lect has their "own" way where they will ask us to find the next pt even though the 1st pt is still in the room. Up until one point where there are 3 pts all together sbb yg 1st and 2nd datang balek to review blood test/ X-Ray/ urine test.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. The room is friggin small and there are 12 people inside including the dr. Then plus another 3 pt lagi if there are 3 pt at a time la. mmg packed gile. And then we, the student will start to feel restless and couldnt concentrate anymore.

Today is the osce exam and there were only 2 stations -_-'
The first one was History taking on Migraine and I think I did quite well though I stumbled up a bit here and there but overall it was quiteeeeeeee okay la. But unfortunately the lect was Dr T who is kedekut markah. so I dont really put high hopes on this one.
The second station was Physical Exam on Diabetic neuropathy. We were asked to test on the proprioception and the monofilament test. This one was kinda good too except the part that I FRIGGIN FORGOT TO WASH MY HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been reminding people before me to wash their hands but I FORGOT TO WASH MINE!
that is just sooooooooo great! grrrrrrrrrrr! GERAM GILER!

OHHHHHHH someone pissed me off real bad yesterday! as you can see from my FB status and tweeter, I was really-really-reallllllllly mad even up until now. Feels like stabbing her 10 millions of times. GERAM OKKKKKKK! ni lagi geram dari tak basuh tangan in PE station. _-_
and i dont feel like elaborating it here kang jadik super emo lak post ni.haha

so yeah..thats it i guess..
yepp..thats it.
Au revoir Fam Med, see you again in Sem 8 which is next year.
and Bonjour Surgery. *gulps*

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2010-12-16T21:20:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

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It's nothing actually

2010-12-12T20:05:00.006+08:00

hey boo..

Me: hey.why are you so quiet lately?
S: quite busy la
Me: oh ok then :)
S: How r u? where r u?
Me: am fine..in sban..u? working alrd?
S: nt yet.starting in Jan. r u on leave now?
Me: oho..nope2..my holiday is in Feb
S: Oh isit.hmm then r u still in IMU? hows studies?
Me: yep IMU.am staying at home. what r u doin nw? tot u alrd working since u said u're busy.hehe
S: nope..I was a bit angry at u actually. And lately my cousin brother is getting married so i had to travel here and there. hehe.
Me: hahaha! angry at me???? why??
S: yes.cz that day i called u so many times for movie and u din reply also. I had to throw the ticket coz lazy to watch alone. hehe
Me: OMG!.. haha.so u act bought the tix? seriously? I've told u right that I cant go out. sorry for causing you trouble
S: hey no probs. Act I was so bored n out of curiosity I bought 1 tix only for me.then I tot of calling someone to join me but my guys were not here.thats when I called u and u din rep. so i got fed up and cm back home.haha
Me: oho! so emo huh? hahaha. wat movie was it? hey I'm so use to watch movie alone. U shud gv it a try. Its not that bad act :)
S: U knw something, I always fall asleep whenever i go for a movie. and thats the reason no one wants to join me even my bro n sis. no matter what movie,I will surely fall asleep n dats d prob.haha. d movie was takers.

and the conversation stopped there as I was going out with mama right after the last msg.

oh sila jgn cetuskan controversy pls! LOLS
its nothing actually........

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2010-12-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

SEE! told ya that I cant promise you to not blog on K-pop anymore! pffftttt.
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haih..why bukan superjunior. T.T

if only cursing can solve all my problems now.

2010-12-12T00:27:00.005+08:00

hey boo..

I'm on my way completing Family Medicine posting reports which consist of Evidence Based Medicine (EBM), Ethics and Medical officer (MO) clinic report.

BLERGH..

fmlfmlfml!!!

It is Saturday night and so far I've spent 4 hours in front of lappie dearie trying my best to at least finish 2 out of 3. (heh, of course diselang seli dengan Facebook, twitter and of course blogging! LOL).
Well so far, I'm done with the most annoying report ever which is EBM. gahhhhh!!
all of my groupmates are complaining of these 3 friggin reports and all I can say is that, yeah,screw you fammed! I honestly do not mind doing patient's summary or report like in Internal Med posting but not something related to RESEARCH!!! ETHICS!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrr.

ok now I wanna see hands up for those who love research and ethics.

none? its not a surprise to me. But so far I've met 2 doctors who are super enthu in this research thingy! and my Research supervisor, Dr. Chiu told us that in future you'll have to do more research in your field of medicine. -_-'''
oh havent I told you that we need to do research upon completing the clinical phase? oh lord.
mine is about measuring the fracture gap in femoral shaft fracture. ORTHO IT IS!
and not some crappy survey although THAT is easier and does not involve much work done.

Ok terpesong pulak kannnn.. back to my Fam Med report here...

Next week marks the end of my Family Medicine posting OYE! omg seriously time flies like no body cares although I CARE! time is like a bullet train mehhh.
sumpah cepat glr! nak kiamat kah? oh lord.

anyways,got to go! I'm halfway done with the MO report.
I'm determine to finished it up TONIGHT! yes you heard me bebeh!

nite nite darlings :)

hmph

2010-12-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

pardon me for my previous over-excited post on K-pop dan sewaktu dengannya.heh! ;p
From now on, there'll be no more post on K-pop! *oh ini bukan janji ye.hehehe*

Anyhow, this entry is specially made for my dear friend who's currently feeling down and upset and what not.
I'm not sure whether she still follows all the craps that are written here anymore or not but in case if you're reading this, here it goes.....

Dear Macik comey!
I know that this is a tough situation or you. I dont know how to put this into words but trust me you'll be fine ok. Accept this as a test from the Man above as He has a brighter plan for you in the future. Have faith in yourself and DON'T ever give up. Even if people surrounding you made it to the last hurdle but you got stuck in between, always keep in mind that it is not the end of the world yet. There's always ways for you to complete the race. Its just the matter of time.
If you think the test that He put on you is unbreakable, think about others who suffer more than you do. Just think about them and you'll be grateful with what you have now.
I honestly dont know how to compose a complete alleviating sentence to ease your burden, but bear in mind that I'm always here for you. I maybe far from you, but you're always on my mind. My prayers will always be with you. Your parents and brother are also there for you. You're not left alone ok!
I dont have the power to give you what you want but I can always support and cheer you from A-Z. All the best for the resit papers. KICK ASS this time will ya? :)

Love,
Macik yg lagiiiiiiiiiii comey ^^

Pardon again for all the grammar mistakes up there. Its been awhile since I last write an all-english post. LOL!
my english is definitely going down the drain. hailohhh.

Choi Si-Won!

2010-12-07T14:41:00.003+08:00

hey boo..

The previous post was about guys dancing in suit kannn
and one of those gorgeous yummylicious human being is CHOI SI-WON!!!

need i say more?
just enjoy the pics!
*penat glr drooling ni*
;p

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2010-12-07T14:41:00.000+08:00

hey boo..

I MUST HAVE GONE CRAZY doooooooooode!!
And No,I'm not those crazy K-pop fans out there!

Guys dancing in suits just turn me on!
LIKE SERIOUSLY!

Of shopping pinggan mangkok to toenail avulsion to circumsion!

2010-12-03T21:18:00.006+08:00

hey boo..

Its Friday woohoo! ok lambat betol nak enjoy Friday when there's only 3 hours left to Saturday. ok merepek ape ni?

Anyways, tomorrow (saturday) adalah hari bersejarah buat warga MOZAC 0105! Kajol is getting married and she's the first one in the batch!!! oh actually tonight is the akad nikah, esok sanding :)
OH GOSH! super happy for youuuuuuuuu! besnya..after this fikir kerja/study je.
*tetibe masok mood sedih BAHAHAHA*
I bought her present from Jusco just now. After spending more than an hour in the pinggan-mangkok section, I decided to stick on to the initial plan which is *cough*lingerie*cough* from Audrey kaler pink+black! nak beli merah menyala but takde.Hot pink adela but macam ~~org kampong~~ huduh lak. HE HE HE! I'm not a PERVVVVVVVVV okkk..Its just that pinggan mangkok tu semua cantik kat kotak je. bile bukak dalam tgk pudar la,design tak elok la.takkan nak suh haku beli CORELLE kotttttt! kalau share 1 batch bole la baiiiii.not that I'm cheapskate but ni share 4 orang je so please be realistic.Ko taw bape harga Corelle tu? haaaaa..taw pon.
Soooooooooo, tomorrow I'll be going along with Hazwa and Ajex. *super sexcited* :)

Anyhow, this morning ada attachment je. No clinic. So we went to the dressing room and after 15 minutes of waiting, SN Khairunisa (SNK) came. We were like, GRRRRRREATTTTT!! I was expecting Sr Hamidah or Sr Teh actually. -__-'''
Gile cuak bile tgk SNK tadi, but nak lari dah tak sempat as she already count how many students were there in the room. OH LORD! So first person yang kene buat was David but he got normal saline dressing which is easy. But to my surprise she didnt raised up her voice to us even though we made silly mistakes. THANK YOU GOD! She's a bit nice today. a bit je la cause ktrg still boleh feel the tense in the room! LOLS! Next was Mira and she had to do (suture to open)STO on a patient's NOSEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! GILE vavi la okkk.Dahla the suturing is not in one line, bersepah-sepah okkk.
And while Mira was doing her job, there was a patient with a big open wound in his thigh yang mmg dah boleh nampak muscle at one corner of the room. At another corner was a patient with a gangrene toes. TRAGIS gile today! normally yang datang hanyalah daily dressing for diabetic foot but today mmg superb la. There was an uncle who lost half of the foot.perghhh.sentap kejap tgk his half presented foot. Yang kaki lubang-lubang mmg banyak la and most of them are diabetic foot ulcer.

After Mira was Afiq's turn and he was damn lucky sebab patient came in for normal saline dressing jugak. I was the last one and I had to do STO on a patient's hand. It was a straight line suturing so it was easy la. Kalau dapat yg Mira punya patient konfem nanges!
After that, SNK left and Mira,Afiq and I stayed in the room. Lucky us as we got to observe and assist on 2 cases of toe nail avulsion! I actually pull out one of them! gile coooooool! Looks evil as Mira said but I had to do what I had to do kan. eh ape ayat merepek! My patient had her toe stuck by chair so the toe nail had come out a bit so there was not lots of thing need to do on it. But the other patient had cagu (I dont know the term in English, pardon me!) so the MA had to dig in between the nail and the nail bed and there was blood everywhere! MEMANG SAKITTTT!
But patients were given LA to reduce the pain laa. We're not that evil okkk.hehehehe.
SO siape-siape lepas ni nak cabut kan kuku, just gimme a call aite! LOLS!
After that, there was a 6 years old chinese boy who came in with Phimosis. So we got to observe circumsion done on that poor small boy. And that was my first time tengok circumsion! gile takjub mase mule-mule but towards the end bosan! HAHAHAHA! kesian giler that poor boy,menjerit-jerit meminta tolong tapi apakan daya procedure harus diteruskan demi memastikan masa depannya BERGUNA & CERAH! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh ayat ni diquote and dialter dari ayat MA yang did the circumsion ;p
Overall,attachment hari ni was a success! FIRST time in 5 weeks of Family Medicine rase attachment sangat berguna LOLS!

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2010-12-03T21:11:00.001+08:00

hey boo..

Oh goshhh...this offer is super tempting!!!!!
From as low as RM199 you get to fly to NZ!!!
I heard a lot about NZ especially on the beautiful places there. It is definitely not a perfect place for shopping (duh!!!) but the scenery, the environment are breath taking!
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:(:(:(
my next holiday will be in February. itu pon just for 3-4 weeks..(if im not mistaken)

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2010-11-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

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